ISWG September – 6 ways to get back on to your ‘confidence carpet’

This post is written for the ISWG group. Read more about them here: 

This past month has been full of adventure and awe, but also challenges which wiped me off from my own ‘confidence carpet’. I will share in today’s post what happened and how I got out of it and back to my ‘confidence carpet.’ Continue reading

Insecure writers – Use your dreams as your seeds for your better future!

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This time I will share with you about my longterm dream, which I have worked with for many, many years.

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Confidence loves speed – ISWG for June 2017

This month I will write about how to conquer some fears in life and doing so – become a better writer and gain more confidence.
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Keys for March – Meet the spring with your heart’s megaphone and courage!

I am so sorry – my dear English blog readers – that I have not kept up my logging here as I promised last year. It has been a very chaotic period in my life, where we travelled with Michael for 3 consecutive months (California and Hawaii). After that we arrived in Mexico where I had to fix my final paperwork to live and work here as well host some guests from far away and work at the same time. It took me almost a month to adjust after the trip.So all in all I plan to also translate the other blog posts for my monthly keys from last year – as well work on the missing interviews, which I still did not manage to do in full (4 more interviews in the works). I am also learning to structure my life and work a little bit different and prioritize accordingly.
This year the main focus is to get my work going really well with Wantra. I decided that this year I will do my monthly keys as well my ISWG posts monthly in English. If occasionally it happens that I get inspired, I may write some additional posts here and there. I am also focusing to be able to finish and publish at least one of my books during this year. It is about time!  This gives me the maximum minimum to keep my blog fans in the loop while my adventurous and exciting life continues. Thank you for your patience! I so appreciate you all!
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This month I will talk about some very important keys, which I never get tired of talking about. It is how to live from the center of your inner courage, intuition and heart. Sometimes I lose my patience. I talk to people and see them around me and feel like I would love to shake some of them to wake up. When do they finally get it? Who are the doers who are actually going to get something done? Is it you?

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Monthly keys for July 2016 – let the inner feminine dance on the earthly carpet!

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This month has the main focus on the earth element. Read my keys to understand how it can all play out! I also focus on the new time relation shift using these energies and making the shift happening in all of our affairs…

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Keys for June – Water’s soft miracle keys

crystalwaterstarI will talk mainly about the water this month as the leading numbers show the lead in June. I also share how you can use the water as your best friend and guide in your life who helps always bring forth more flow and flexibility.

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Surfing through life and astrology waves – Interview with Katrin Haiba

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Photo: Katrin Haiba

Interview with Katrin Haiba (NYC, Mexico, Estonia)

4th of February, La Cruz, Mexico

A story about surfing, sailing and Cosmic Wave Astrology.

Questions and stories recorded/written by Crystal Ra Laksmi.

Additional editing by Katrin Haiba.

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Tacking the blog – Interview with Michael Ditton – Dreams, Goals and Adventure

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Welcome back to my blog. I will introduce you to my new blog set up as well to my very first interviewee, Michael Ditton – an author, self development coach, speaker, sailor, businessman and so much more who lives his dream. Continue reading

Weekly keys – 4. – 11. January – Roadmap to the Highway to Yourself in 2016

BB7palmsI promised to all of you my dear readers that this time I will talk about the new time numerology for this year, but the spirit is guiding me to write about another topic this time and follow up my promise next time.

This time I will talk about how one idea can reset and reorganise your life, give you your livelihood as well help you to live your dream. As it is the beginning of the year I would love to inspire everyone to make a little research what needs to be changed in your life and where one is headed in general to make it the best year ever! Continue reading

Weekly keys – 26th of Oct – 2nd of Nov – Golden middle path between happenstance and leading

1throwleavesThis week I will talk about how things happening by chance and how to lead, Tammsaare energies and stubborness of Estonians and how to prevent diseases and virus infections during the autumn season and how to improve your immune system. Continue reading

Weekly keys – 6th till 13th of July – Gifts from embracing the change

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Many people write the book first and then make a movie out of it. But my life is already like a movie, which could be turned into a book. My blog posts can be like small movie shots from here and there.

This week’s blog summarizes all the latest keys from NYC and my thoughts about it. I am starting a total love relationship with NYC. It holds me, activates me, penetrates me and grows me. This time it was really cool to be there, as I was there without the fear. Next week I will give you an overview of my observations getting back to Estonia. Continue reading

Weekly Keys – 9th till the 16th of February. Let this week be the DATE week with yourself!

5kayakThis week the keys are focusing on how not to make compromises with yourself; a reminder of the boundary settings; control in the new time energies; how to build the bridge between the heart and the head. It will finalize with a little glimpse to my heritage background. Continue reading

StretchDanced the Storm away!

docutrailerpalmtreeEvery time I go to the class I think maybe I should prepare more. Then the voice in me tells – no. You can just go and improvise and take contact with the group energy and enjoy the flow. It will turn out like LILA – the divine dance of the micro and macro cosmos inside and outside of you. Most amazing is that it does! Every single time!

Yesterday evening I got the message that the tropical storm is heading towards us and probably it is going to be be like 3 days of really bad weather. I had planned to have my StretcDance in the Sea class in the morning. So I tuned in to the storm energy and said, if it would love to express itself, could it come up like around midday not earlier? With that in mind I went to sleep.

vabasukeldumineI woke up and it was really rainy. I went to check it and it was all cloudy but not much of a wind. So I decided to go. I tuned in to the ocean and asked it to deliver a warm current to the spot where we usually have our class. So I got to the beach and wondered if there is someone else brave showing up and yes, one of the mermaids was. She was fully prepared with the equipment.

We said our usual aloha to the ocean and then our toes touched the water and it was really warm. Outside temperature must have been around 25 C, inside it was around 35 C for sure. Wow. What a surprise. So the magic had worked!

We got in and put our snorkels and masks on and saw the bottom. Wow the water was clear! During the first exercises I observed one bigger fish, who was actually checking his breakfast but i guess we were too big to bite. In between the waves were coming in and I was swimming in the clouds. It was a very mystical and mysterious feeling.

Throughout the class one movement after the other presented itself and we got more and more relaxed went deeper and in between it was almost hard to speak as we got so relaxed that it felt like the left side of the brain was turned off completely.

Doing the classes or courses outside in the nature is the most amazing classroom one could imagine. The outer reflects the inner. Today we could hear the symphony of the raindrops getting into the water and also some birds flying and the ocean and the water was very warm and felt almost like an embracing mother. Everything was so humble and it literally felt like the ocean and the nature were bowing down to us and to our dance. There was something magical in the water and in the air. Unusual. Not describable.

We got out exactly one hour later and it was much colder outside than inside, usually it is the other ways.

Then my wonderful human mermaid said something to finish up as we were expressing gratitude to each other in this playful classroom. She said that when she travels away she can still do the moves and it can remind her of me. I thanked her of being the brave mermaid coming out to play as it is always nicer to play together with someone than just alone.

The storm did not reach to our location today and in the news it said during the night it had ‘dissipated.’ One should not think one can order weather, but what if we could? What would happen then? 

Tell me about some of your ocean experiences. What is it you love about this ocean university, what has it taught you? 

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Thank you for reading and sharing your comments, Aloha Crystal

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Bicycle adventure in Mexico

BB1jungleToday, after I had worked online for several hours, I felt my body was ready for a new adventure. I got some directions how to explore more of my neighbourhood. So off I went around 5.30 pm. The weather was not too bad. What I mean by that is that it was not too hot. It was actually cloudy and really ok temperature. September is the hottest month over here, so usually it is around 45C  every day during the daytime.

The first part of the road was like in the jungle movie. Big trees, overgrown on the sides, and then this long green grass on both sides. The first stretch was without any pavement, later on it was paved, so I could enjoy my bicycle ride.

BB4junglehousesJust after maybe 1 km I got to the first houses of Nuevo Vallarta, where the big hotels have been recently built one after the other snaking by the ocean side. One hotel is bigger than the other. The road was wide and very well done, so for the bicycle, it was a paradise. It seemed to become happier and happier as the time went buy. My eyes were enjoying these views of these beautiful houses by the road, hotels and loads of palm trees, alleys and all kind of other exotic trees. It is so lush and green right now as we have been having rain almost every night. In addition some thunderstorms and lightning.

BB2bicycleThe road was continuing for a long long time. So I did something what I did a lot when I was a kid. I just picked one road and wanted to see where it went. So I just followed it until I could not go any more. As it was a little village it was not a problem, because all the roads ended somewhere. But this one continued long. I think it must have been around 45 minutes later I was in the very end of it, as I could not go further.

BB9mayanpyramidAs the prize for my long drive I saw this little Mayan temple and the pyramid. On the side of it I saw many banana trees with their bananas on. I remember some of my first times in Hawaii, when I discovered how bananas grow and also how the whole ‘big plant (because it is actually not a banana tree)’ will be cut down as the bananas are ripe. So I even did some videos of these to archive the precious moments of meeting the bananas. You see, as a person from Estonia, it is a very precious moment indeed.

BB13plumeriasThen I turned back and even found one or two trees with plumerias. In a way it was a bit sad to see all these big hotels and developments. Nothing seemed to be done in cooperation with the nature. Of course I do not know all the details, but it seemed so. What about small cute Mexican style clay houses? Or ecohotels? I guess over here the thought goes where the masses go. I hope it will change one day.

BB7palmsLater I got to another road, which I also wanted to check where it goes, but they had guards there and seemed it was more closed. So I turned around. On one of the corners there were some local Mexicans and they were all waving to me after I shouted HOLA and one of them even said out loud:

‘Hey pretty lady!’

I must have missed one of the turns as I looked at the houses and these looked very strange. So I thought, it is not so far, so I can just bicycle back by the side of the road.

BB18bigroadThat is where the ‘real adventure started.’ I guess maybe my masculine side got a bit tired of me just having this long slow stroll with the bike, which felt like driving a Mercedes, so comfortable. So I get to the main cross and the traffic lights are difficult to understand. there is no clear understanding which light is meant for who. So I tried to figure out and of course started to move exactly where it turned for red for me. Luckily I could stop (in the middle of the road) and get going when all of the cars had passed. 

So I got to the main road and thought there must be some kind of side shoulder or side road. I tried to cross the main highway (both ways 2 lanes) and that was a challenge. It must have taken me around 13 minutes or so to get to the other side as the traffic was very heavy.

So I got to the other side and even if the shoulder is like 4-5 meters wide and you even have the strong yellow line strongly painted close  to the edge, so that the cars should see it clear, there were many cars which passed me so close that I swallowed hard.

So I tried to get as close to the side of the pavement as I could. As it is a total anomaly sight over here to see a white girl driving a bike with very short shorts as well, I got lots of cheering up from most of the cars. Would never happen in Estonia.

Then the next thing came up. One of those side roads which looked nicer and quieter were full of hidden dogs on the side. So they could jump into your bike any moment and then ‘take a little bite ‘ of your leg… I had 2 wild dogs like that coming towards me. Then I stopped so suddenly they got shocked and then I shouted at them some really rude words in Estonian and they were totally shocked and ran back. Works every time. Wow.

So in between I was not sure if I was going in the right direction. I checked some of the buses and they had the sign to Bucerias, so I knew I was on a right track. Then I could see some of the familiar buildings – Wallmart, soon came Mega. I was surprised that there were not so many cars out there, but as it is a national independence day today here in Mexico, everyone is celebrating at home I guess. So I wonder if it would have been more cars as usual would I have been run over then? 

In the end I just got so into the zone of that danger (my hands even shaking in between) that I almost passed my turn. I happily got to my side of the road and cruised into the community feeling like I had passed some kind of Mexican test or something. Feeling proud of myself. 

Then I thought to make a little bicycle round in the community, but first thought to check on the new neighbours – a female couple. They were home, kindly offering me their amazing salads and we were talking stories about ourselves, Mexico and life. It was so nice. We were just so on the same page. They showed me their backyard and the development project which was going on there. That looked really good. They are a Canadian couple who are here in Mexico for good. I admire people like that, who just come and change like that! We also shared some fun stories about Mexican time!

I must have spent more than an hour there. I got home, had a nice cold outdoor shower, fed the cat, who was so happy that took off right after. I myself had another additional bite to sit down and write this.

It just works for me to adventure a little bit every day. Find new places and give my body some new possibilities to move and discover new ways.

This morning I did Organic StretchingTM and the topic for today was ‘multidirectional movement’ and I had a nice session on the floor. I guess what happened was that I also got that ‘multidirectional’ into my bicycle trip. I got back home safe and was totally multidirectional.

Now the body is tired and feels like I would love to go to bed early tonight. Early for me is like midnight (usually go to bed around 3 am). I even thought of starting to have these morning bike rides every day. I will see what the body says in the morning for this. As during the day it gets so hot, it is impossible to move.

The body was happy, the mind was happy and the elements were in total balance and also got some social input, which I have had quite a lot this week. During the last 3 days I have adventured every day – Friday the PV trailer filming. Saturday the eco community visit and today the bike. I have also discovered I am most effective when I have some adventures and then work again. Too much of the same does not really work for me. I am happy to get it confirmed over and over again.

Tell me about you and your adventures? 

When was the last time you adventured?

Do you have your weekly, daily small adventures?

Would you love to adventure with me one day? 

Check out the Hawaii adventures. Still some spots available!

Check out the nice gallery of the journey!

Adventures from January till August 2013

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Summary of the activities and adventures

January till March – London

aablogwingskyI stayed in London to check out new possibilities for my new base in the world. I made several courses for the locals and participated in some of the bigger ones done by others. London as a city was fascinating, almost overwhelming, but living there on that particular moment did not really work. Maybe I lived with people who I was not supposed to? Maybe the timing was wrong, but all the sings where showing on this direction. I got very sick and had to travel to Mexico to get my health back on track. It was interesting that from London the ticket to Cancun was cheaper than the ticket to Estonia. The choice was not hard to make.

March – April Mexico, Cancun

picasa crystalnewmexicoI healed myself through the sun and the ocean and got my body back in shape in 2 months time. At the same time we started with a new online course for 6 months called Ettevõtlusjooga (business yoga) with my new cooperation partner. I joined with several of other projects, to get the foundation for my new life in order. One of these was to visit an event of 5000 people in Chicago, which gave me a lot of inspiration for the future. I worked mostly on the online project and prepared for the courses in Estonia.

May, June Estonia and Mexico – Puerto Vallarta

mirror  theoryI did many Access Consciousness® courses and worked on one to one clients and made bigger conclusions and sum ups of my life in Estonia. In the end of June I adventured back to Mexico, this time to the west coast. I participated in Organic StretchingTM Teachers Training, which was wonderful. After the course I decided to stay longer, to get my body and being more into balance.

July – August Mexico – Mexico, La Cruz, Bucerias

* In the middle of July I got the idea to make a documentary about Pat Henry and Organic StretchingTM.picasapatmemovdinner Magical events started to happen and I got offered 3 houses to take care of and in addition two volunteer proposal editors. It has been a hectic and powerful work we have done all together. Now the local filmmaker joined forces in addition to another one coming from New York. How lucky am I?

mermaid pond* In addition I started StretchDance in the Sea lessons, which have had really powerful results for all the participants, including myself. I did not only lose weight, but also everything and everyone else, which was not supporting me.

* I stepped out of 2 bigger systems, which I felt did not support me any more.

* In cooperation with others from all over the world two amazing new websites were developed:

www.cyrstalralaksmi.com

and the Estonian version:

www.crystalralaksmi.com/eesti

crystalralaksmiandwritersgroup* I met up with many new people and foreigners, who shared with me their trust, generosity, kindness from their whole heart. They did not only share their hearts with me, but also their homes! This is very unique!

* I got invited into some new global clubs, which may influence the world big time!

* I got back to my divine path and back in my zone!

I am really grateful for everyone who has crossed their paths with mine and contributed to me to get closer to my inner path so I can contribute more to the world and myself as well. Thank you, mahalo!

StretchDanced myself and others into new Universes within a month!

In the end of July of 201SDfocaltext3 when I had gone to the ocean almost a month every day of the month as the ocean was also so warm (35 C), the ocean started to converse with me and I got a message to start a StretchDance in the Sea class. My mind of course came out with thousands of reasons why I can not. So one by one I walked it through and got a flier or two together, posted it to most places around the area and told everyone I knew.

Everyone who came, knew me personally. So not much to do with social media here if you are not really known it seems. So you have to be the invitation to people organically.

Lila was the first one to show up on the first class. She kept showing up as lots of interesting stuff kept happening to her one time after the other after the sessions in the ocean. So cool I thought.

There were classes where the only person showing up was ME. It did not make me feel bad, as it would have been back home. Now I took it as a chance to just play with me, discover new moves and just get more ‘flesh on the bones’ for the next class. That was a huge shift in the whole energy. 

 

mermaid pondMore people showed up one by one and I loved it more and more, including more and more elements from all the water years since 2009 when I started to have fun with people in the water. You see, I can not really call it as ‘work’ because it is too much fun. ‘Work’ usually means something you hate. I love it!!!

I travelled here 1 month before I started to do the StretchDance and I participated in the Organic Stretching TM Teacher’s training.  After some weeks, I started to do stretches in the warm ocean water. It was amazing as when I also used a mask and a snorkel I was free to turn around and do movements I would never been able to on land.

It must have looked really funny from the shore. Looking for someone who plays with her toes. But I did not care. It was my playtime and all I cared was the play and exploration.

picasadiveplainalohaI got  in to the most impossible positions – which may have looked like a baby who got herself into knots and did not know how to get out of it again. I also discovered the fun of stretching out (as most yoga styles do) and stretching inwards (what Organic StretchingTM focuses on a lot). My body became happier and happier as it could finally move the way it never could before. It was like a child let loose in the sand box and was going crazy, as there was so much sand and so many possibilities to make the cakes out of it!

So what do we do in the class?

First we say hello to the ocean and ask for the protection during the session and enter it. Sometimes we also talk to the molecules to be the contribution to heal the pollution in the world’s pollution.

We ask the inner ocean to embrace the outer. And we start to say hello to our bodies, minds and spirits through different moves, which I firstly guide, but then let everyone explore what and where is their body willing to go. I have no limits, so whatever idea comes, I will support it and explore it to the core, as does the group.

We sometimes do sounds and sometimes through the snorkel. It looks very funny having some adults in the water facing down and mumbling something into their snorkels.

I incorporated everything I have ever learned or picked up from somewhere about the water sessions, body work and mind work and energy healing. In the end we did some work on the joints in the group and also more relaxing stuff also as a couple working in the water.

We can contribute so much to each other this way. Every time some new fun movements were like crawling out of my body as some small creatures coming out to play. 

I also felt that finally I was just doing something of my very own and did not have to think of the fact of doing something wrong as the ‘modality’ says or the ‘teacher’ does. I could freely explore and all of it was a value for me and others. How cool?

It felt like I was the sponge which had sucked in all the knowledge over the years and lifetimes and was all flowing out of me now one drop at the time. 

Throughout this month I had more magic pulled into my life  one by one – the inner masculine provided me with every tiny detail to make my life and flow simple with my projects, bringing to me new people and new ideas, new possibilities, providing me with 2 beautiful homes to work from and supporting my focus on working on the different online stuff.

It was really amazing. My body felt happier and happier, more relaxed, I must have lost more weight  and my bikini shape is all back again! All with no effort! I have even built some muscle structure I did not have before! My skin looks nice and smooth like a dolphin skin. I hardly had a day being crumpy again. As soon as I got it I knew, it is time to go to the ocean and do my dance again.

So it is not all about how much you move or even how you move, but how smart you move and how much do you listen to your body and how present are you in your body! I love the ease in it as I got so tired of working out pushing myself to the limit and not enjoying it at all.

In the later classes we incorporated the mask and snorkel into the classes. With the mask you can do turns which you would not without and with the snorkel you can breath in some extra air, which will create more alkaline body inside out, which means you relax more. When you relax more, you can receive more. The moves and stretches can go very deep when you do not have to worry about the water getting into your nose or mouth.

This month I truly became a mermaid. After one of the classes I had this spooky experience. I walked out of the water and it literally felt like I moved from my mermaid tale to the legs. Like the moment my legs touched the ground, it felt like it turned into two legs. I truly believe into the ‘swimming ape’ theory, that all of us actually are water creatures. We have just forgotten it. StretchDance in the Sea has awakened my inner mermaid and not only, also my inner and outer fairy tales!

This class explored also the newer ways to facilitate knowledge, where every person is their own guru, and the main facilitator is just the guide in the space, holding space. All the outer circumstances – like Mexico as a location, which should be the platform for the crystal and golden energy as well as the warm ocean water (usually around +35 C) and the sun and the warmth in general  as well quite gentle ocean conditions (protected bay in the Banderas bay) all contributed to the amazing dance outside and inside of us which could create some more magic.

Our bodies were finally turning into symphonies where the inner magic strings were played in harmony.

Every time the faces looked wider and happier after the class. I felt so good. So what I basically did – I just held space and created some guidelines what to do. Everyone got so many different ways to look at themselves or their lives anew and create it as they would like.

One of the times one of the participants had her dog getting a surgery back home while we were doing the class. Out of nowhere we had this amazing dog coming and playing with us and also being very protective, when we disappeared into our snorkels, he came to check on us. So we sent some healing energy to her dog having an operation.

After the class was finished, which took usually an hour, I felt deep peace, relaxation and total presence. My whole body was soft. There was 0 stress. My life was flowing again. Tensions were gone from my body and my vocabulary.

mermaidsstretchingLila Osborne, the first amazing participant in the class is a remarkable woman and her name is an important message, coming to my life for a year now. (Check out her blog by clicking on her name).

First of February in 2012 me and Katrin Haiba (another amazing Estonian lady, who lives in NYC) – we had a nice sea goddess ritual in the very same ocean spot where I have classes now.

We were living on Katrin’s boat for some time – called LILA, which in sanskrit means ‘Within non-dualism, Lila is a way of describing all reality, including the cosmos, as the outcome of creative play by the divine absolute (Brahman).’

Lila, the boat, was previously owned by Pat Henry – a brave woman who circumnavigated the world alone with the very same boat and whom I got to know through her book ‘By the Grace of the Sea’ and her ‘Organic Stretching’TM classes and through Katrin’s connections. Almost 1,5 years later I came to participate in the Organic Stretching TM Teacher’s Training and start my new playful journey to the Mother Ocean and myself.

I have been wanting to create my own modality and have had loads of ideas, but this has been really beyond my imagination – the outcome of creative play by the divine absolute indeed. The modality which is a system without a system where everyone is on their way HOME to themselves if they have lost the way.

This I feel is just the beginning. I am so grateful to Katrin Haiba for inviting me here last year. I travelled from Hawaii and was not really willing to receive this location so well ( I missed Hawaii,BI a lot). Now I travelled from Estonia and it was a complete opposite. I was ready to receive everything. And I have and more to come! I am also super grateful for all the mermaids who came to the classes and everyone who helped me walk on land like an angel supporting and providing some magic every step of the way! Mahalo and Gracias!

The dolphins in the bay from  a sailing trip here with Marie and Leonard on Mi Casa boat. 

Lilas video testimonial after a month’s StretchDance in the Ocean on the 2nd of September  2013.

Peta, another participant shares her experience after one of the classes on video. 

Let me know if you have had some wonderful experiences in the water and if you would love to join the StretchDance classes in the Ocean or even better, invite me to your community  to invite you to the playshop of these discoveries! Go to my contact me page to initiate contact and leave your wonderful comments and stories down below! We mermaids love to play, whether it is fishes in the sea or words on paper!

How long are you going to postpone your dream life?

Desktop20Do you have moments, where you tell yourself, ah, I will do that tomorrow? Or later?

And then a day goes by, a week, a month, a year…. and you have longer and longer piles of ideas which will never be a reality! They will remain into a bubble state, unless you choose something different.

We are so good to find reasons why we are not able to do or choose something. I must say I feel like I am perfect on that sometimes! What about you?

kyllusmartI asked what is one of the reasons I hold myself back, because I am the only person who can keep me back. One of the answers I got, was that I am afraid of the failure. I have had so many small failures recently, that I did not want to create any more.

I wanted to really find out what it was, so I took a break here on the blog as well. I do not want to do anything I do not like to do, as I know this does not have the energy I would love to share.

But what is a failure? It is the conclusion our mind makes, according to what we define as a success. So if your results do not show what your mind was looking for, you conclude it is a failure. This is a judgment. Wherever we have a judgment, we can not receive – whether it is money or energy or ideas. So I have done loads of work with my judgments about myself this last week through different courses I facilitated myself and strated to create again! Got loads of generative ideas, choices and results!

universumMy challenge has been that I have had my own company for 6 years and have done loads of sales and marketing myself, spending many many hours daily by the computer. At some point I got so tired, I could not do anything online any more. I burned out. Totally. I did not delegate. Because wherever I did, it was another failure for me. I lost trust in people. In between I did not trust the Universe and did not let God be God. Then buttons like this would have done good for me!

One of the reasons why I joined Empower Network, was that I felt that they have many of the shortcuts and toolboxes which may go through things with ease and joy and glory. I would love to create more time for everything I feel I could contribute to people and the world.

So all you need is a choice! What is it you choose? To postpone things forever?

Or TAKE MASSIVE ACTION NOW!?

Henry Ford said: 

Whether you think you can or can not  – you are right!

Chris Record from Empower Network said you can not make excuses and money at the same time. Money is just an idea away. I agree.

Just two days ago I decided I choose something different. Stepping into my power I chose to create some events, one of these was a meeting with people in a spa, inspiring them to be in the water in a different way like mermaids for example. One of them had a fear of depth. I have developed a technique where people can go through the fear in a very short period of time. I helped this person to step through this within 15 minutes. The smile, the energy and joy she had, was so overwhelming, but so powerful, that it took my breath away! Time flew, 2 hours felt like 20 minutes. For me it is a sign that I am doing something which is part of my WHY here on Earth.

Also one very important thing for me is the place. The place where I live, work and play has to inspire me. If it does not, then I have to follow the energy and go to where it does.

One day I went to the cafe, and none of the plugs had electricity in it… So I left.

Today I followed the energy and went to the cafe where I felt inspired to work and got done loads of work within 2 hours, like in my office, being in a cafe surrounded by people, happy energy and support.

In conclusion, do whatever it takes to stop you to have your dream life now! Do whatever your guidance tells you! It never lies!

If you need some ideas how to do that and would love to choose a shortcut toolbox, let me know here!

Mahalo Mexico!

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2,5 months ago I escaped to Mexico. On the right hand side you see on the picture how I looked the first day when I got here. I looked pretty bad. Exhausted of fights, being in fear and not being able to create and live my dream life because of many limitations I had stupidly chosen and created in my life. I had got myself so stuck that there was no way out. I thought so.

Luckily with the help of friends I got to fly to Cancun. It took me 3 weeks to get my health back on track (coughing and lungs and high fever) and to pull myself together again took almost a month. My core turnover and breakthrough happened thanks to Greta Campagnolo from Canada, my sponsor in Empower Network, who totally believes in me and is a total kick ass woman, who kicked me so far that I managed to get donations around 1000 usd to get myself to Chicago and experience other 5000 people with me there.

picasa crystalnewmexicoOn this picture on your left, I am all balanced and happy, 2,5 months later, because of the right locations and right people and business choices I did. It is very important to listen to the inner guidance! That is one of my keys to the success!

In Mexico I worked a lot online. Every day I worked online and to heal my body, went to the local beach, in the very end I had some trips to Tulum Mayan ruins and also to Akumal turtle bay. It was an amazing experience to finalize my stay.

What do I love about Mexico?

The first time I was in Mexico was last year in Puerto Vallarta, where I stayed with my friends on their sailing boat, after that with a local family in Sayulita. It was a time full of adventures and challenges, but I really loved it. This time I got many new business ideas and also some of them are already giving fruits and if I keep it like that, will create my new sustainable future step by step.

aablogsolI love Mexican people. They are humble and creative and innovative, they do not complain, even if they do not have money or luxurious place to live. The whole village here is full of small enterprises and they all must function, as they are all opened all the time! I love the way they focus on their food and how many variations they have. I love how they take care of their family. I love the kindness they have. I love that they are dedicated whether it is a family or bills to pay or business to do. I love that there are good public transports to every possible place here.

Anni Sennov has said that Mexico is the golden and crystal energy platform for new time energy. I truly believe so. I felt so good here, much better than in London or Estonia. I love the laid back fishing village life and that everything is simple. For a climate refugee a perfect spot.

aablogsayulitaThe costs are 10 times or more cheaper than in London and maybe 2-3 times cheaper than in Estonia. To have the sun and an opportunity to go to swim in the Caribbean every single day is a jackpot itself! I lived with a Mexican family and it was nice and quiet place. The family was very helpful and always there if I needed something. How lucky am I? My dear friend Veronika Osawe invited me to this family as she stayed with them for some time herself. There is so much abundance here, especially in the nature.

I do not think they use it all very sustainably (like the solar power etc). There is a bit of lack consciousness and seems that when people get things going, they stey pretty much in the same known area. But I love the business mindness what they have here, everyone is doing something, whether it is playing music on the beach, selling snacks or just driving around with a little food counter in the village or renting rooms. I have learned so much to open my eyes in a different way to see possibilities!

aamexicolifeI did not manage to travel so much this time here for several reasons, but I got back to my own platform, to my own power and started to believe in myself and got my health back on track. Partly the help was Mexico itself, its sun and the ocean and partly it was the Empower Network Chicago event, where I got myself back again. Plus all the amazing people who have supported me here, or online. Will be back soon! If you are lost as well and do not know where to go and how or who you are or are just confused, let me know, maybe I can ask you some questions, and by sharing my story, you could get inspired and live the life of your dreams as well. That would make me so happy! More than anything! To see others to succeed!

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How far do we get if we try to be like others?

crystaltravelslighth2RREntrance from the end of April, 2013, Cancun, Mexico

I am now packing my stuff to leave Mexico and the last day was too busy even for a blog, but will do some extras to make it up!

Yesterday I got a thought of how much of my life I have wasted because I wanted to be like others or to fit in or to do like others were doing in order for me to be recognized and accepted. How far did it get me? Not very far, I got stuck every single time.

After the Chicago event I have been stepping into my own power more and more with every single breath I take. Sometimes it comes up quite abruptly like a little child, who tries to crawl and then to stand up and falls and hits herself. But I am much better already.

I thought back of so many relationships where  I have lost myself exactly because I wanted to be liked or appreciated or accepted! And when  I lost myself, I felt contracted, small and several times almost got killed. All that urge was rooted in the uncertainty of myself being me.

What if noone will be with me if I am truly me?

That was my everyday question.

In Chicago I chose a personal commitment to totally stand in my power and step into it beyond my wildest dreams. Every day it has brought me more challenges, but I am learning more and more how to balance my life on all fronts. It has not been easy, but I am better with every step and enjoying my empowerment more and more!

One of the core keys I have discovered within the last days is to be me and let others be who they are.

Simple as that. But what happens most of the time is that we would like that others would think or act the same way as we do or that we change ourselves so that they would like us more. I have discovered that when people do not like me it is their choice and I do not fight with it any more. I let them be and go, and focus on people who empower me because with them I can be fully me and be accepted exactly as I am. It empowers me and makes me grow and expand without any limits!

What about you? How much energy and attention do you put into wanting the others to like you? In the core bottom it is all connected to the fear of judgment. If you take that away, let your barriers down, what would happen next? I do not know, try it out and let me know!

 

Habits make you who you are!

aablogsaladdinnerLet me introduce you to my two new friends: Mr Dicipline and Mrs Priorities. My new friends who help me to succeed and constantly create new sustainable life on all levels!

I thought what would it take to change some of my bad habits and self sabotaging patterns?

Sleeping patterns?

The sleeping patterns have been very messed up recently. Because of the time difference with Europe is pretty bad (8 hours) it is almost impossible to get connected if you do not get up superearly or stay up late.

Today the idea came that what would happen if I would not sleep during the night, I would choose to step into my business powerwoman and just shoot the whole night and the day, until I drop. Which gave me an experience that I slept only 3 hours during that day (2 plus 1) and the rest of the day was super effective. I listened to my body fully and acted accordingly. And I changed the pattern in cooperation with my body! Wow!

Postpone everything to the last moment?

One of the patterns which has been really bad – has been to postpone everything I have to do to the last moment and that creates a lot of stress. So what would it take to change that? Maybe to do something totally different?

Change that with Empower Network!

What I find fascinating about Empower Network, is that it gives you an opportunity to self discipline yourself together with others. My problem the recent years have been that I have too much time, so I am not very good at planning or organizing myself. This way not much gets done and I destroy myself more and more.

8 commitments can help!

If you have the 8 commitments in Empower Network and keep them, plus have the group’s support, it gives you aslo a possibility to take the necessary steps to succeed. Because for sure if you change your habits, also people you had around you, will change and you will succeed. It is just so easy and so simple!

These have been the two things I have been missing in my life and some of my reasons to join the Empower Network. What are yours?