I am deep diving into my writing more. I have been preaching to people for more than 15 years – do what you love and the rest will follow. I only now realise that even though I have had exposure for my writing and journalist work both in magazines, newspapers, online as well in radio and TV, I still kind of do not believe it can become your number one triumph or give you all you have dreamt about. Read my exploration about the topic today!
I just recently saw some videos with Dakota Johnson, who plays Anna in ’50 Shades of Gray’. The movie sold for like half a billion dollars and was a huge hit worldwide only so because a housewife wrote down her sexual fantasises and gave people what they needed and suppressed!
When you watch videos with Dakota, you can truly see that she is fully who she is and she believes in her unique artists’ skills and that they can bring her the world and more. She has no fear and she is very courageous. She just does what she loves and candidly so, and all what she needs and more will be delivered.
Why is it then that most of the 7 billion people do not believe that it can be so easy? Why is it we are so rooted in the ‘ you have to work hard to make it’ belief?
More and more I dig and research about my future book about relations in the new time, more and more I find success stories of small things like even e-books sold for couple of bucks. So what is it that is really keeping me back to do it? I have so much material – all I need to do – is to organise it together in such a way it works for my readers and fans.
I am not really such a good system person, even though my last 2 years my own experiments with it have shown that yes – systems can help you to achieve your goals. Like writing a blog for 2 years weekly was a good way to test a system and how it works for me.
But all in all my insight has been – I have to focus on my strengths and writing is one of them. Maybe someone else could help me to systemise it? Why do we think we need to do it all ourselves?
I figured it is partly connected also to the fear of really sharing my uniqueness and talents with the world as then I have to be completely vulnerable to also receive any feedback. It is partly so because I am so used to ‘the hard way’ of making things happen. This is so as I still do not fully believe I am a great writer and a great artist.
One year ago I made a self love declaration with myself. I wrote all the things which I wanted to follow and honour to make me feel happy at any times. It has worked miracles. Even brought me my dream male partner! One of the things I recently added to the list was – dig out all my creative talents as they penetrate me and make me happy and have fun with them.
This last week I discovered that I must be a true artist as something sad happened in my life and I listened to some sad songs and started to write a poem. It came out of me with no effort – weaved together with multitude of meaning in between the lines and it felt like I gave birth to a child.
I was thinking about why is it that people most of the time live their life in the past or in the future and not in the now and if we ever are going to be able to live in the now and appreciate all the present moment has to offer?
I understood that I need to honour my artistic commitments and take time to find places, people and space to start to paint again, write books which also get published as well the poems and do my kind of journalism weaved together with my anthropological curiosity about life, people and cultures as well work more with my artistic photography – NOW not later is my very key.
Because for me – being an artist of the word or a colour or a moment – penetrates me from the inside. It awakens my deeper soul to spread the wings and go beyond any limitation I have set to myself or others have set to me. I promised I will take the time to let it penetrate me, get so alive and excited and pull people and places into my life which nourish that need, which make me the unique me who I am to this world.
A little proof to how this work was from my last promotional participation in the local community event Sunset Market here in Mexico where I introduced my Wantra water module work. This is a market, where most businesses in the area can come and introduce what they do. As most people were offering food and drink samples I thought what can I offer? So I sat down and wrote down 78 questions. Soul penetrating questions and put numbers in front of these. I cut them into little ribbons and put them into the bottle. When people passed my table I shouted out: ‘Message from the bottle – no calories – no food poisoning possible! Come and get food for your soul!’
People got curious and came to take the message. Once they read it – they smiled and felt amazed by the accurate message it had for them. They could take the message with them and meditate on it more. By the end of the day almost 70 messages got out there.
One piece of consciousness walking around in the community, all because I had one creative idea. The idea developed further and you may hear more what I did with it later this year.
So do not underestimate your creativity. What makes you feel creative and what conditions or circumstances penetrate you? Let yourself be penetrated by your creativity! It will give you pleasure and may bring the world to your feet!
Please share with me about your journey into the depth of your creativity! What penetrates your creativity? People, places or emotions or something or someone else?
This post is done for the Insecure Writers Group. Read more about it here: