By now I have adventured in Estonia for the last 3 weeks and passed through the main big cities like Tallinn, Tartu, Viljandi, Haapsalu and Pärnu and had my summer retreat in Matsalu. I would like to share my experiences as well give some ideas how to move through the blockages which I witnessed. I am sorry if I am too honest and too direct.

The other Estonian is the best food for the Estonian – or even worse – another Estonian healer is the best food for another Estonian healer!

When I started to do public events in 2005, there were not many who did these kind of events publicly yet. Now we have a little healing room or a centre and seems that everyone is a big star in this field. I have nothing against it, but I believe, that everyone has enough people and their corner to work in. But most Estonians and healers living here do not think and act like that.

Revenge and blocking the other is a way to cooperate for them in Estonia. The country is small, areas are small, not too many people. Many think that they have to fight to find clients and do all kinds of tricks to find them.

Within the 2 weeks tour I experienced how these people tried to block my way. Thanks to my experiences to tame the demons in Mexico, I have got enough experiences what to do in that case and these did not influence me or did not get to me. Stronger crystal and golden energy offers protection which is not possible by any human.

What is needed here so that healers here would understand that everyone would win from the cooperation instead of competing? This is a question what I will leave in the air and I hope that the Universe will help to transform it.

Surfing in the new wave

During this adventure we met many exciting, successful and positive Estonians. In every pod there were black sheep, but very few. My son, who was my assistant asked – mom, where do these people come as I thought Estonia is full mostly of negative people? They come to the similar energy.

My experience was amazing as I cooperated with the spirit and followed the signs. I got new people, contacts who offered to organize events or even hosting me. Hosting is something most Estonians can do so well. I am so grateful.

In some place or town my old contacts and memories where like ghosts in front of my eyes and it was really hard to get rid of it and detach, but starting to ask: what else is possible, the possible solutions came with ease.

Like the sailing in Pärnu, which was supposed to be cancelled because of the bad weather, but we managed to get this done with some magic by changing the weather, getting the sun out as well the perfect wind and the rainbow.

Surfing in this new wave I understood how at one point the contact and contract with some people is done and you need to move on. Everything is on the move and letting go is the best possibility to move on and kiss the unknown. What would happen if all the people would behave and act like that?

Living in the fear

In many towns I could sense how many people live in fear. Fear exists in many forms – like the thought that I can not manage, what would future bring, do I have enough money etc. As I have lived a very conscious and balanced life, then drama what people shared with me was surprising. This seems to be the main food here.

How to get rid of it?

You need to choose different behaviour and habits, people and environments. After one of the events, there was a lady who came to me and asked what she should do as she lives in a very complicated house. I told her to ask the question: What else is possible? She said – nothing is possible. I said – it is not the point for you to answer, the point is to throw it out to the air and let the universe give you ideas where to move and what to do.

In addition we should completely dissolve the cultural belief Anton Hansen Tammsaare shared – through sweat, pain and blood attitude. Life can be an easy flow and complete abundant support. I had one woman coming to me, who said that she has everything she needs for life, but not enough to buy a private jet yet, but life is still a flower;) This kind of attitude is resonating with me!

Men in Estonia

Conscious – space holding men – where are you in Estonia? During my tour in Estonia, I did not really meet you? I know that there are more of you, but it would be nicer, if you would show more of you and during the spiritual events would help to hold space. Most events, where there was around 34 – 60 people, there were only two to three men. In the new time energy it almost demands that the man would create the safe space, where the woman can open up her power and start to bloom.

She can use her inner man, but most women have exhausted their inner man who can not carry it all. Men would need a school for that purpose, as in the usual schools this is not taught. If men would learn that, the whole world would turn around in a split second, as the women have the keys to creation. What miracle do I need for that and do I manage to experience this during my lifetime – it is a question…

Estonian elements

We have a lot of rain pouring down in Estonia, as Estonia needs more flow, ease and conscious work with the emotions and sharing as well speaking your truth. Estonians should learn to trust themselves more as well their intuition as well their path where to walk. Historically we have been been influenced as well manipulated by many nationalities as well cultures and now it is the real time to find out who we are and what does it mean to be an Estonian?

The fire element is almost missing as we have not enough sun, but also because so many people are just surviving and not doing what would motivate them from inspiration instead of a need. Many negative emotions are not dissolved and burned away, and it all is boiling in the pot under the lid. There is so much suppressed anger and resentment.

Earth element is one of the most powerful ones – but only through rationality and material stuff it is not possible to manifest and we need to transform that as well.

Air element is the most active and opened, as we have new information coming in as well the technology is so well advanced here and grows faster than a fur tree in the forest. Now it is necessary for Estonians to see what is needed to be done, to keep the fresh and young brains in Estonia and secondly what to do with all the resources so we do not sell it all to the foreigners.

What I see, is that Estonia is small and because of that, it will change faster than most countries. Not everyone manages the changes as fast as they come though.

Collective consciousness in Estonia 

Right now I feel it is very controlling, as there are lesser and lesser old time people, so these people are held almost like in a hostage, as long as possible. For that people who would love to move on, for example through Auratransformation (expansion of your consciousness and moving into the new energy). But in the end if that person is completely confident about the expansion, it will be done.

Collective consciousness has many holograms pointed at it, which program people to act through fear and even through slave consciousness. All those who come to experience something different may experience attempts to be eliminated.

Media

Media is the right hand of the collective consciousness. I have tried to get stories into media for the past 6 months in Estonia and all the trials have failed. Why is that? Media can influence very many people. Even if they would read only one line, it would start to change different pattern and energies. This is very dangerous to the collective consciousness, as then there can be more people who believe or hope or even work towards stepping out of the boxes. Right now every individual is choosing what goals will be set and what visions they are going after.

You need to follow your visions, not the money, as it will follow you by itself. When I had my first long client day, many were talking how they chase money, to get material. I asked what would they do with it? They are actually buying freedom. But it is possible to choose other possibilities and choices. It is so much easier if you live in opened possibilities and you would be a big question mark yourself. You would not solidify nothing or no one. How simple is that?

Home assignment

During the next week, try to live with opened possibilities. Listen to your intuition all the time and follow this if possible. Be the question instead of a solid viewpoint and see what happens!  Choose a vision for this week and follow this. During the weekend make some summaries and share underneath this story. 

I am Crystal Ra Laksmi. Despite my very foreign sounding name, I am a real Estonian, even though I am more of a cosmopolitan than a rooted traditional Estonian. I am now digging through my roots, relations and past, to heal my now and future. This is a very interesting process, but necessary, if I would like to create a new future, where the past would not haunt me any more. For this you need to be completely honest with yourself and with all your parts, in order to embrace it all and let go. I hope that with my little reflection while being back in Estonia after 2 years I manage to inspire each reader to explore and look at yourself and Estonia thorugh new eyes.

Eyes, which smile more than cry, eyes, which blink more than wrinkle, eyes which open your own heart treasures even to a stranger by expressing love, even though only during Crystal’s event.

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