Insights from traveling from Hawaii to San Diego

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Aloha everyone!

This blog will be about my traveling insights. I have not focused too much on the blog as the statistics has shown that people do not really read it much. They would rather watch a 8 second video than read something long. But because I love writing I love to archive my thoughts this way and there are some who enjoy reading too. So here we go.

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Reconnecting with myself through a virus in Hawaii!

A wonderful stretch in my favourite Botanical Garden on the island – it feels to me like I am Alice in the Wonderland there;)

What happens when I try to go to bed early and sleep like regular people – 8 hours? My mind is usually so active in the evening and night time that it takes sometimes hours to slow down and in the end I end up still with 6 or 5 hours. But today I had a wonderful shamanic journey while slowing down my brain. I will share here with you.
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I have not updated my blog for quite a long time. I am so sorry. The reason is that  I am so overwhelmed by so many tasks, projects and things on my to do list (and believe me my time management is under too much control at the moment!).
Writing for me is a spiritual time or reconnection and creativity time for myself. When the obligations suck me in I often times lose a desire to write. But today I will as I had a wonderful journey I would love to share with you all.
I know I have to make some changes in my life and choose some new commitments for my self-love so that my own time for my creativity gets also nurtured more.

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ISWG May – Meet my new friend – The fruit of the angels!

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This month I have been doing some more creative writing and one of the techniques which helps to handle it better is to observe something in your environment and write a story about it.

It is first of May here in Hawaii, known as a lei day. But today I will take into focus another new friend of mine here. It is called ‘the fruit of the angels.’ I did not know much about this fruit, but living here in Hawaii has introduced me to this fruit in so many ways. I would love to share this exploration journey with all my readers.  Continue reading

ISWG April – It is the Time for Mermaid Awakening!

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Another month has gone by and the first quarter of the year has passed. I do weekly checkins with myself to check where I am, where I am heading and how my last week has been.

As Brendon Burchard questions it : – did I live, did I love, did I matter? These have been good questions to check where I am with my life.

I had to answer that yes – I have lived, loved and mattered. For me living means living to the fullest – doing and being what I love most – whether it is my hobbies or fulfilling my life mission. Love is so essential wherever I am and now living in Hawaii it has made it even more central. It is in every step and breath I take. I always have a bigger picture and think what and how I can influence not only my day today but also my future and this planet’s future with my choices and creations.

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ISWG – March – The main key to the insecurity

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I have had some interesting times. I have learned so much about my own vulnerability as well wounds which are all connected to the insecurity.

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ISWG – February – How to make insecurity to move out of your reality?

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Aaaah. What happened to time? Suddenly I realize we are almost heading towards the mid February and I am behind with all of my to do lists!!! I am a bit overwhelmed and stressed, but I guess that is normal if you are a person who has many balls in the air at all times! I am practicing more conscious time handling and it is taking time to get used to it. This month has been really boosting my confidence through a roof. I have challenged myself in so many ways. Read more how! I also discovered something funny about my insecurity during this month. Continue reading

Interview with Valev Laube – ‘Courage is a ticket to your dreams’.

Photo by Sylvester Benson-Sesay.

I am so excited to introduce to all my fans a talented Estonian-born brand manager and designer based in New York City – Valev Laube. We have not yet met each other in one physical location, but we were introduced by powerful women based in New York, like an Estonian dancer Diina Tamm, artist Jaanika Peerna and a power-woman behind the Estonian Cultural Days in New York Kadri Napritson-Acuna.

We have followed each other’s lives with Valev via social media. I instantly admired Valev’s courage to create bigger events and choose challenges which most people would run from.

Even though I thought I am not going to produce more of these kind of interviews he inspired me to make an exception and here it is!

Valev Laube is an Estonian-born brand manager, artist, and designer currently based in New York. He’s an enthusiastic creative mind whose digital designs and social media projects have been the cornerstone of many New York-based festivals, events, and company brands.

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ISWG January 2018 – How you can travel the world without leaving your island?

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This post will be about my experiences in Waimea Ocean Film Festival in Hawaii.
What is cool about it is that you do not need to go far – as the world will be brought to you in the movies. I love traveling, but recently have enjoyed to be more stationed in one place and that is why it is a delight to travel visually for a change;) 
It has touched me to the core and I think it is my duty to share it with my writer friends. One thing for sure, this festival has reconnected me with the true artsy being in me – touched me so deeply that my tears have been flowing each day and I have promised to take better care of my artist’s talents this year and put them in use – filmmaking included… 
I am deeply touched. New Years Day has been amazingly full of so many surprises. I have never driven a road here in Hawaii on the 1st of January at 8 am. It was such a pleasure – as there were almost no cars on the roads!!!
Half way through I saw 5 goats by the road. Hawaiians say that this can be the message from the ancestors. Last time I did something extreme like this – being kind of alone and where the masses were not was in Volcano – doing that family retreat.
The goats reminded me today again that I will always be the one who walks her own path during times most do not. What is really weird – is that I do not feel scared or alone at all. This is something my artsy being actually loves to do and it is so natural for my being.
This is a huge step ahead – to be like that, as then I am there where most people are not. Many times – that is where the pioneers are.
The beauty of this island took my breath away. The sun was rising behind the mountains and I could see the holy Mauna Kea mountain with the snowcap on it. Waimea was greeting me with clouds and 63F. Felt like I was back in Estonia again.
Coming here was a journey. I found this info already last year, but never really acted on it. Once I decided to choose it – it created ripples.
Question mark – do you really go for your dreams or give up? I did not give up and asked for help from different invisible helpers and they did. I am so grateful.
I was looking for places where to stay during the festival and it seemed to be a mission impossible. Then I just got an idea to ask someone I know. She recommended someone who used to have a B&B. So I put it into motion and when I arrived here I was blown away.
We have choices – to pick a place by the busy road where you can not sleep the whole night or hold your breath to climb the mountain with your car or choose the true queen’s palace just 8 minutes from the festival locations (that was my pick). Wow;) I am a super ‘manafestor’ on this island. I thought that maybe this muscle has got rusty…. I have the view to the Mauna Kea side and the full moon and the Kohala mountains on the other side. There is a little stream down the base of the house and it is just so spacious. I could just stay here for a whole month and write, write, write and write…
Today’s Waimea Ocean Festival was very inspiring. My first film festival experiences were in Tromsö in Norway. I studied visual anthropology during that time and it was compulsory for us to go. I remember meeting the filmmakers and talking to them and I was so excited – I almost was shivering. After I did my two documentaries myself and left the academic world – movies and filmmaking has been kind of in the background and not very active theme.
But during the last year it has kind of surfaced again and I think maybe it is because my ancestors would love me to leave behind a bigger mark than I have so far.
Movies are a great way to do that. They are a huge work, but the impact may be beyond what we can even imagine. I really love documentaries and imagine I spent 2 years of my life to learn how to make them and now this has just been on the back burner for 10 long years!!!
Today’s movies talked about big wave surfers and several movies were about the Big Barrier Reef in Australia. The most powerful movie was the ‘Chasing Coral’. I was crying most of the movie as a true mermaid. I have noticed how the corals are in bad shape around Kona waters.

The movie tried to document what is happening to the coral reef in different parts of the world and the results were shocking. If it continues like this – the reefs in the world may be dead in 30 years time!!!! Coral reefs are super important to our ecosystems in the oceans and they are like the forests of the sea. Take these out and you will have no fish and to put it simply – the whole planet’s ecosystem is in danger.

Because the ocean temperatures have increased, the reefs are dyeing slowly and all over the world. If you would love to see what you can do or what your children can do to save this planet, check it out here:
What is also really interesting that I was one of the few persons from my age group. Most people attending were retired people. That made me think – do other people not care about quality films and issues in the world – or is it that we just work, work and work (especially my age group) and never stop to take a break to think – where are we running, how are we living and what choices are we making and what are we doing and leaving behind for the future generations?
I am glad I chose to clear my schedule and made a choice to come here. I decided to give myself a gift as my last year was a very successful year. This is not only a gift to me, but will be a gift to the world, as I will take action as well share some of this with my tribe and classes.
Only now – 41 years old I am really starting to own what an artist I am truly in my heart – the writer, the filmmaker, the painter and maybe while living here in Hawaii – it is time to let them surface and see how I can serve them and how they can serve me and the planet. In my mind I have the old and stupid belief – you can not earn money with these things and these are just for fun, so do not pursue them. I have been so insecure about them.
My visual anthropology studies in Norway, I financed myself and made it happen. I do not know too many Estonian women who have lived and filmed in South Africa for 5 months completely alone…
After the first day I am full of ideas, touched to the core of my being and will create many new things in the future inspired by this very day where I chose to see 9 different films today.
The Hawaiian canoe Hokulea film and Q&A was also super inspiring.
I am so lucky to be here and be able to attend. I am very grateful to my husband Michael Ditton as well as he was so kind to support my trip here.

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ISWG – December – Walking with my ancestors ;)

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I gifted myself a whole weekend of systems and organization as well family constellation work with Fransesca Mason Boring in a beautiful eco Volcano Retreat center Akuaha run by Darshan Mendoza here on the Big Island of Hawaii. It was a wonderful weekend which also inspired me in so many ways.  Continue reading

Insecure writers – Use your dreams as your seeds for your better future!

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This time I will share with you about my longterm dream, which I have worked with for many, many years.

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Keys to April – Love compass treasure hunt

This time I felt I would love to write differently. As this last month has been a very tantra theme month for me (because of Estonia events), I thought to explore this topic a bit deeper and in a more creative way. I will let my female energy to lead my words and I hope it will reach to the hearts of those people who are ready to receive it. Continue reading

ISWG – March – The hidden key to the roots of the insecurity

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This month was for me like a research project. I will answer my question: Where can we find the roots to the insecurity?

 

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Keys for March – Meet the spring with your heart’s megaphone and courage!

I am so sorry – my dear English blog readers – that I have not kept up my logging here as I promised last year. It has been a very chaotic period in my life, where we travelled with Michael for 3 consecutive months (California and Hawaii). After that we arrived in Mexico where I had to fix my final paperwork to live and work here as well host some guests from far away and work at the same time. It took me almost a month to adjust after the trip.So all in all I plan to also translate the other blog posts for my monthly keys from last year – as well work on the missing interviews, which I still did not manage to do in full (4 more interviews in the works). I am also learning to structure my life and work a little bit different and prioritize accordingly.
This year the main focus is to get my work going really well with Wantra. I decided that this year I will do my monthly keys as well my ISWG posts monthly in English. If occasionally it happens that I get inspired, I may write some additional posts here and there. I am also focusing to be able to finish and publish at least one of my books during this year. It is about time!  This gives me the maximum minimum to keep my blog fans in the loop while my adventurous and exciting life continues. Thank you for your patience! I so appreciate you all!
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This month I will talk about some very important keys, which I never get tired of talking about. It is how to live from the center of your inner courage, intuition and heart. Sometimes I lose my patience. I talk to people and see them around me and feel like I would love to shake some of them to wake up. When do they finally get it? Who are the doers who are actually going to get something done? Is it you?

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Monthly keys – Summary of 2016 and a *Won* forecast for 2017

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I hope everyone had wonderful holidays. I wish everyone a happy abundant year full of possibilities of fulfilling your dreams!

I will now take a little deeper look back at the year of 2016. First I tell you more about my personal journey and then more of the general – how I observed this year was for my clients and the world. Continue reading

ISWG – December post – How silly mistakes may create your dream life?

 

 writerbadgeThis post is written for the ISWG group. Read more about them here: 

From the ISWG page it guides us to write about this topic:

Have you made a silly mistake recently in your writing or with your career? Is there a mistake you’ve made more than once? I’ll share one of mine: When I type fast, I often hit the wrong key. This happens the most with the word “shut.” I accidentally type an “i” where the “u” should be. That makes for some interesting sentences and a lot of laughter when I catch it. Continue reading

Monthly keys of May – update your dreams while you cleanse!

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This month’s keys are about the numbers of the month, how to activate the ‘spiritual leg’, how to dissolve the resistance with the knowledge of the elements and how to prevent the forgiveness process. In addition what else is needed to be overlooked, in order to create the maximum flow. 

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Weekly keys – 13th till 20th of April – Dolphin Download

EThis week’s keys talk about my dolphin experience and how every reader could use this for your own benefit. New time is a time of Aquarius which brings higher frequencies with it and dolphins are the mammals, who can help us on this road. Warning: Reading this article will rise your frequency! Continue reading

Is Monogamy Outdated?

picasatimeforchange2I wrote couple of articles about the free love some years ago in the Estonian media, as well as about tantra, but these did not get much of a feedback then.

Anthropologists’ target should be to focus on topics which are relevant in the society, and as soon as I saw this article, I thought it is time again to talk about this topic in public.

The story is up in The Independent (18th of August, 2013) ‘Monogamy is outdated, according to controversial BBC investigation’. Read it before you read my comment to it.

My comments about the story

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In 2008 I visited Zegg eco village, where they practise free love and polygamous relations in East Germany.

In this village they have a ‘love house’ and they have ‘flirting parties’ there. In that house they have different rooms, where people can do what their spirits and bodies would love to do.  The main target for the village has been to unite the spirituality and sexuality. Whether they have accomplished that or not I would let others to decide. 

As I have studied anthropology,  we had to read loads of stories in our curriculum about the cultural examples about different cultures and some of it was also about polygamy, where this is more of a practical key how to make the everyday life work sustainably.

For example in Tibet, where most of the men are out in the mountains with the cattle part of the time. In some of the villages they have agreements, where men are divided and some of them are up in the mountains and the others take care of the women and children in the village. One woman may have two or three men. When the child is born, it is not important, who is the father of the child as they will take care of all the children equally.

When I started to discover this topic on my own,  I got loads of judgments from other people (most of them were in conventional relationships and judged me exploring it as being a hooker). During this journey I got into total conflict with myself till I travelled to Hawaii to visit a local healer.

He saw this as  actually part of my bigger mission – to activate people like that – to be in relation with many several people at the same time while being in the flow. One after the other I noticed the pattern. I got to know a new man, we started dating. After some short period of time we had to break up and right after that they found their perfect long term partner. It happened over and over again.

My question to him was: ‘Why is it so

difficult for me to find one long term partner?’

He asked me: ‘Do you need him this way?

Maybe you are a natural poly person?’

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On top of that I discovered I am bisexual as well. So I tried to put together all the different parts. I had the possibility to live together with an amazing man and a woman for one month in Hawaii. This was the most functional and happy time in my life. We had a total trust, care and honesty.  The practical life was much easier and nicer, because we had a total team work and cooperation happening at all times.

The key for this cohabitation was this: we had very similar world views, we were all very conscious and sexually healthy and emotionally balanced people. We knew it would be just this one month, but I did not experience any jealousy at that time, drama or cheating at all.

Jealousy has roots in the uncertainty and self value. If one is certain in him or herself and the self value is in place, there is no possibility for jealousy. This is just my viewpoint.

This experience encouraged me, that this is not only utopia, but a real possible reality, if  I choose so. I think myself that it is very natural to be both with the woman as the man as it may balance the woman nicely. It may not be suitable for everyone, but it is a possible choice. 

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During my world travel I have actually met many of these very opened and expansive couples and people. It was a relief to know that there is nothing wrong with me and there are more of us out there in the world. We are looking for each other, maybe one day to create communities where we could live and co-habitat together. No this is not just hippie time coming back again. It is a conscious choice and creation.

Then I thought that maybe the idea of going deeply into a relation shift with one person is just an utopia as I have imagined, or some kind of implant which has been put into us by religions and systems or is it something else? 

One is for sure, the utopia of monogamy (the old version, where you can not be with others sexually) keeps many people in boxes and frames. But may work for some.

Take for example honesty. Watch some soap operas and bring in some real honesty. The whole idea of a soap opera disappears. Drama disappears. When two people who are in the relationship fall in love into an external person, it does not mean, that you should leave one and hide the other one. Where have we got with this hiding? 

I loved how they handled this topic in the movie ‘The Great Gatsby’. Everyone cheated on everyone, basically publicly and when they all got to the point to act according to the heart, it was all about the drama and the ownership waves hit over the head, which created even more drama.

My vision and sense is that monogamy may disappear even faster than 10 years. We expand in our spirit and body faster than we could think. In this expansion, we start to live a life without fear, where we do not have rules, have only the agreements and an opened communication. People could use the 4 V system, which would build a foundation to the sustainable harmony and balance on all levels in our life. (If you would love to get this system, register your name to the list on my news list on my webpage’s first page).

Everyone will of course choose which kind of relationship suits them. It is important to be tolerant. If someone chooses something conventional and it makes them happy, then why not and if not, let them be in peace and live their life too? 

The biggest key to change the world is actually ECSTASY AND HAPPINESS. How we get there, it is up to the choices. If these choices are done in consciousness, balance and honesty towards yourself and others, done with care, from your heart, it can be the main key to create the butterfly effect and activate it in the whole world.

 

winnieMaybe it is about time, where we have to become Winnie Poohs in our relation shifts as well, where we would not choose this or that, but choose both!

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Does this article resonate with you? Please share it with your friends and leave your comment!

Please share with me your thoughts, experiences about monogamy and polygamy!

How do you sense the future ‘relationship model’ develops? 

What kind of relationship model works for you right now? 

When it works, why? 

crystalblissThank you! 

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