StretchDanced the Storm away!

docutrailerpalmtreeEvery time I go to the class I think maybe I should prepare more. Then the voice in me tells – no. You can just go and improvise and take contact with the group energy and enjoy the flow. It will turn out like LILA – the divine dance of the micro and macro cosmos inside and outside of you. Most amazing is that it does! Every single time!

Yesterday evening I got the message that the tropical storm is heading towards us and probably it is going to be be like 3 days of really bad weather. I had planned to have my StretcDance in the Sea class in the morning. So I tuned in to the storm energy and said, if it would love to express itself, could it come up like around midday not earlier? With that in mind I went to sleep.

vabasukeldumineI woke up and it was really rainy. I went to check it and it was all cloudy but not much of a wind. So I decided to go. I tuned in to the ocean and asked it to deliver a warm current to the spot where we usually have our class. So I got to the beach and wondered if there is someone else brave showing up and yes, one of the mermaids was. She was fully prepared with the equipment.

We said our usual aloha to the ocean and then our toes touched the water and it was really warm. Outside temperature must have been around 25 C, inside it was around 35 C for sure. Wow. What a surprise. So the magic had worked!

We got in and put our snorkels and masks on and saw the bottom. Wow the water was clear! During the first exercises I observed one bigger fish, who was actually checking his breakfast but i guess we were too big to bite. In between the waves were coming in and I was swimming in the clouds. It was a very mystical and mysterious feeling.

Throughout the class one movement after the other presented itself and we got more and more relaxed went deeper and in between it was almost hard to speak as we got so relaxed that it felt like the left side of the brain was turned off completely.

Doing the classes or courses outside in the nature is the most amazing classroom one could imagine. The outer reflects the inner. Today we could hear the symphony of the raindrops getting into the water and also some birds flying and the ocean and the water was very warm and felt almost like an embracing mother. Everything was so humble and it literally felt like the ocean and the nature were bowing down to us and to our dance. There was something magical in the water and in the air. Unusual. Not describable.

We got out exactly one hour later and it was much colder outside than inside, usually it is the other ways.

Then my wonderful human mermaid said something to finish up as we were expressing gratitude to each other in this playful classroom. She said that when she travels away she can still do the moves and it can remind her of me. I thanked her of being the brave mermaid coming out to play as it is always nicer to play together with someone than just alone.

The storm did not reach to our location today and in the news it said during the night it had ‘dissipated.’ One should not think one can order weather, but what if we could? What would happen then? 

Tell me about some of your ocean experiences. What is it you love about this ocean university, what has it taught you? 

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Thank you for reading and sharing your comments, Aloha Crystal

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Bicycle adventure in Mexico

BB1jungleToday, after I had worked online for several hours, I felt my body was ready for a new adventure. I got some directions how to explore more of my neighbourhood. So off I went around 5.30 pm. The weather was not too bad. What I mean by that is that it was not too hot. It was actually cloudy and really ok temperature. September is the hottest month over here, so usually it is around 45C  every day during the daytime.

The first part of the road was like in the jungle movie. Big trees, overgrown on the sides, and then this long green grass on both sides. The first stretch was without any pavement, later on it was paved, so I could enjoy my bicycle ride.

BB4junglehousesJust after maybe 1 km I got to the first houses of Nuevo Vallarta, where the big hotels have been recently built one after the other snaking by the ocean side. One hotel is bigger than the other. The road was wide and very well done, so for the bicycle, it was a paradise. It seemed to become happier and happier as the time went buy. My eyes were enjoying these views of these beautiful houses by the road, hotels and loads of palm trees, alleys and all kind of other exotic trees. It is so lush and green right now as we have been having rain almost every night. In addition some thunderstorms and lightning.

BB2bicycleThe road was continuing for a long long time. So I did something what I did a lot when I was a kid. I just picked one road and wanted to see where it went. So I just followed it until I could not go any more. As it was a little village it was not a problem, because all the roads ended somewhere. But this one continued long. I think it must have been around 45 minutes later I was in the very end of it, as I could not go further.

BB9mayanpyramidAs the prize for my long drive I saw this little Mayan temple and the pyramid. On the side of it I saw many banana trees with their bananas on. I remember some of my first times in Hawaii, when I discovered how bananas grow and also how the whole ‘big plant (because it is actually not a banana tree)’ will be cut down as the bananas are ripe. So I even did some videos of these to archive the precious moments of meeting the bananas. You see, as a person from Estonia, it is a very precious moment indeed.

BB13plumeriasThen I turned back and even found one or two trees with plumerias. In a way it was a bit sad to see all these big hotels and developments. Nothing seemed to be done in cooperation with the nature. Of course I do not know all the details, but it seemed so. What about small cute Mexican style clay houses? Or ecohotels? I guess over here the thought goes where the masses go. I hope it will change one day.

BB7palmsLater I got to another road, which I also wanted to check where it goes, but they had guards there and seemed it was more closed. So I turned around. On one of the corners there were some local Mexicans and they were all waving to me after I shouted HOLA and one of them even said out loud:

‘Hey pretty lady!’

I must have missed one of the turns as I looked at the houses and these looked very strange. So I thought, it is not so far, so I can just bicycle back by the side of the road.

BB18bigroadThat is where the ‘real adventure started.’ I guess maybe my masculine side got a bit tired of me just having this long slow stroll with the bike, which felt like driving a Mercedes, so comfortable. So I get to the main cross and the traffic lights are difficult to understand. there is no clear understanding which light is meant for who. So I tried to figure out and of course started to move exactly where it turned for red for me. Luckily I could stop (in the middle of the road) and get going when all of the cars had passed. 

So I got to the main road and thought there must be some kind of side shoulder or side road. I tried to cross the main highway (both ways 2 lanes) and that was a challenge. It must have taken me around 13 minutes or so to get to the other side as the traffic was very heavy.

So I got to the other side and even if the shoulder is like 4-5 meters wide and you even have the strong yellow line strongly painted close  to the edge, so that the cars should see it clear, there were many cars which passed me so close that I swallowed hard.

So I tried to get as close to the side of the pavement as I could. As it is a total anomaly sight over here to see a white girl driving a bike with very short shorts as well, I got lots of cheering up from most of the cars. Would never happen in Estonia.

Then the next thing came up. One of those side roads which looked nicer and quieter were full of hidden dogs on the side. So they could jump into your bike any moment and then ‘take a little bite ‘ of your leg… I had 2 wild dogs like that coming towards me. Then I stopped so suddenly they got shocked and then I shouted at them some really rude words in Estonian and they were totally shocked and ran back. Works every time. Wow.

So in between I was not sure if I was going in the right direction. I checked some of the buses and they had the sign to Bucerias, so I knew I was on a right track. Then I could see some of the familiar buildings – Wallmart, soon came Mega. I was surprised that there were not so many cars out there, but as it is a national independence day today here in Mexico, everyone is celebrating at home I guess. So I wonder if it would have been more cars as usual would I have been run over then? 

In the end I just got so into the zone of that danger (my hands even shaking in between) that I almost passed my turn. I happily got to my side of the road and cruised into the community feeling like I had passed some kind of Mexican test or something. Feeling proud of myself. 

Then I thought to make a little bicycle round in the community, but first thought to check on the new neighbours – a female couple. They were home, kindly offering me their amazing salads and we were talking stories about ourselves, Mexico and life. It was so nice. We were just so on the same page. They showed me their backyard and the development project which was going on there. That looked really good. They are a Canadian couple who are here in Mexico for good. I admire people like that, who just come and change like that! We also shared some fun stories about Mexican time!

I must have spent more than an hour there. I got home, had a nice cold outdoor shower, fed the cat, who was so happy that took off right after. I myself had another additional bite to sit down and write this.

It just works for me to adventure a little bit every day. Find new places and give my body some new possibilities to move and discover new ways.

This morning I did Organic StretchingTM and the topic for today was ‘multidirectional movement’ and I had a nice session on the floor. I guess what happened was that I also got that ‘multidirectional’ into my bicycle trip. I got back home safe and was totally multidirectional.

Now the body is tired and feels like I would love to go to bed early tonight. Early for me is like midnight (usually go to bed around 3 am). I even thought of starting to have these morning bike rides every day. I will see what the body says in the morning for this. As during the day it gets so hot, it is impossible to move.

The body was happy, the mind was happy and the elements were in total balance and also got some social input, which I have had quite a lot this week. During the last 3 days I have adventured every day – Friday the PV trailer filming. Saturday the eco community visit and today the bike. I have also discovered I am most effective when I have some adventures and then work again. Too much of the same does not really work for me. I am happy to get it confirmed over and over again.

Tell me about you and your adventures? 

When was the last time you adventured?

Do you have your weekly, daily small adventures?

Would you love to adventure with me one day? 

Check out the Hawaii adventures. Still some spots available!

Check out the nice gallery of the journey!

Adventures from January till August 2013

My last newsletter from my old newsletter system went out 6 months ago. I was in a chaotic vortex and I needed a lot of cleansing. Now I have my new targets in place and here you have one part of my new newsletter. The new newsletter gets out through a-weber. If you have not yet left your email (leave it on the first page of the website on the right side) it is about time to do that as I share some real nice tips, advice and blog entries in my newsletters.

Summary of the activities and adventures

January till March – London

aablogwingskyI stayed in London to check out new possibilities for my new base in the world. I made several courses for the locals and participated in some of the bigger ones done by others. London as a city was fascinating, almost overwhelming, but living there on that particular moment did not really work. Maybe I lived with people who I was not supposed to? Maybe the timing was wrong, but all the sings where showing on this direction. I got very sick and had to travel to Mexico to get my health back on track. It was interesting that from London the ticket to Cancun was cheaper than the ticket to Estonia. The choice was not hard to make.

March – April Mexico, Cancun

picasa crystalnewmexicoI healed myself through the sun and the ocean and got my body back in shape in 2 months time. At the same time we started with a new online course for 6 months called Ettevõtlusjooga (business yoga) with my new cooperation partner. I joined with several of other projects, to get the foundation for my new life in order. One of these was to visit an event of 5000 people in Chicago, which gave me a lot of inspiration for the future. I worked mostly on the online project and prepared for the courses in Estonia.

May, June Estonia and Mexico – Puerto Vallarta

mirror  theoryI did many Access Consciousness® courses and worked on one to one clients and made bigger conclusions and sum ups of my life in Estonia. In the end of June I adventured back to Mexico, this time to the west coast. I participated in Organic StretchingTM Teachers Training, which was wonderful. After the course I decided to stay longer, to get my body and being more into balance.

July – August Mexico – Mexico, La Cruz, Bucerias

* In the middle of July I got the idea to make a documentary about Pat Henry and Organic StretchingTM.picasapatmemovdinner Magical events started to happen and I got offered 3 houses to take care of and in addition two volunteer proposal editors. It has been a hectic and powerful work we have done all together. Now the local filmmaker joined forces in addition to another one coming from New York. How lucky am I?

mermaid pond* In addition I started StretchDance in the Sea lessons, which have had really powerful results for all the participants, including myself. I did not only lose weight, but also everything and everyone else, which was not supporting me.

* I stepped out of 2 bigger systems, which I felt did not support me any more.

* In cooperation with others from all over the world two amazing new websites were developed:

www.cyrstalralaksmi.com

and the Estonian version:

www.crystalralaksmi.com/eesti

crystalralaksmiandwritersgroup* I met up with many new people and foreigners, who shared with me their trust, generosity, kindness from their whole heart. They did not only share their hearts with me, but also their homes! This is very unique!

* I got invited into some new global clubs, which may influence the world big time!

* I got back to my divine path and back in my zone!

I am really grateful for everyone who has crossed their paths with mine and contributed to me to get closer to my inner path so I can contribute more to the world and myself as well. Thank you, mahalo!

StretchDanced myself and others into new Universes within a month!

In the end of July of 201SDfocaltext3 when I had gone to the ocean almost a month every day of the month as the ocean was also so warm (35 C), the ocean started to converse with me and I got a message to start a StretchDance in the Sea class. My mind of course came out with thousands of reasons why I can not. So one by one I walked it through and got a flier or two together, posted it to most places around the area and told everyone I knew.

Everyone who came, knew me personally. So not much to do with social media here if you are not really known it seems. So you have to be the invitation to people organically.

Lila was the first one to show up on the first class. She kept showing up as lots of interesting stuff kept happening to her one time after the other after the sessions in the ocean. So cool I thought.

There were classes where the only person showing up was ME. It did not make me feel bad, as it would have been back home. Now I took it as a chance to just play with me, discover new moves and just get more ‘flesh on the bones’ for the next class. That was a huge shift in the whole energy. 

 

mermaid pondMore people showed up one by one and I loved it more and more, including more and more elements from all the water years since 2009 when I started to have fun with people in the water. You see, I can not really call it as ‘work’ because it is too much fun. ‘Work’ usually means something you hate. I love it!!!

I travelled here 1 month before I started to do the StretchDance and I participated in the Organic Stretching TM Teacher’s training.  After some weeks, I started to do stretches in the warm ocean water. It was amazing as when I also used a mask and a snorkel I was free to turn around and do movements I would never been able to on land.

It must have looked really funny from the shore. Looking for someone who plays with her toes. But I did not care. It was my playtime and all I cared was the play and exploration.

picasadiveplainalohaI got  in to the most impossible positions – which may have looked like a baby who got herself into knots and did not know how to get out of it again. I also discovered the fun of stretching out (as most yoga styles do) and stretching inwards (what Organic StretchingTM focuses on a lot). My body became happier and happier as it could finally move the way it never could before. It was like a child let loose in the sand box and was going crazy, as there was so much sand and so many possibilities to make the cakes out of it!

So what do we do in the class?

First we say hello to the ocean and ask for the protection during the session and enter it. Sometimes we also talk to the molecules to be the contribution to heal the pollution in the world’s pollution.

We ask the inner ocean to embrace the outer. And we start to say hello to our bodies, minds and spirits through different moves, which I firstly guide, but then let everyone explore what and where is their body willing to go. I have no limits, so whatever idea comes, I will support it and explore it to the core, as does the group.

We sometimes do sounds and sometimes through the snorkel. It looks very funny having some adults in the water facing down and mumbling something into their snorkels.

I incorporated everything I have ever learned or picked up from somewhere about the water sessions, body work and mind work and energy healing. In the end we did some work on the joints in the group and also more relaxing stuff also as a couple working in the water.

We can contribute so much to each other this way. Every time some new fun movements were like crawling out of my body as some small creatures coming out to play. 

I also felt that finally I was just doing something of my very own and did not have to think of the fact of doing something wrong as the ‘modality’ says or the ‘teacher’ does. I could freely explore and all of it was a value for me and others. How cool?

It felt like I was the sponge which had sucked in all the knowledge over the years and lifetimes and was all flowing out of me now one drop at the time. 

Throughout this month I had more magic pulled into my life  one by one – the inner masculine provided me with every tiny detail to make my life and flow simple with my projects, bringing to me new people and new ideas, new possibilities, providing me with 2 beautiful homes to work from and supporting my focus on working on the different online stuff.

It was really amazing. My body felt happier and happier, more relaxed, I must have lost more weight  and my bikini shape is all back again! All with no effort! I have even built some muscle structure I did not have before! My skin looks nice and smooth like a dolphin skin. I hardly had a day being crumpy again. As soon as I got it I knew, it is time to go to the ocean and do my dance again.

So it is not all about how much you move or even how you move, but how smart you move and how much do you listen to your body and how present are you in your body! I love the ease in it as I got so tired of working out pushing myself to the limit and not enjoying it at all.

In the later classes we incorporated the mask and snorkel into the classes. With the mask you can do turns which you would not without and with the snorkel you can breath in some extra air, which will create more alkaline body inside out, which means you relax more. When you relax more, you can receive more. The moves and stretches can go very deep when you do not have to worry about the water getting into your nose or mouth.

This month I truly became a mermaid. After one of the classes I had this spooky experience. I walked out of the water and it literally felt like I moved from my mermaid tale to the legs. Like the moment my legs touched the ground, it felt like it turned into two legs. I truly believe into the ‘swimming ape’ theory, that all of us actually are water creatures. We have just forgotten it. StretchDance in the Sea has awakened my inner mermaid and not only, also my inner and outer fairy tales!

This class explored also the newer ways to facilitate knowledge, where every person is their own guru, and the main facilitator is just the guide in the space, holding space. All the outer circumstances – like Mexico as a location, which should be the platform for the crystal and golden energy as well as the warm ocean water (usually around +35 C) and the sun and the warmth in general  as well quite gentle ocean conditions (protected bay in the Banderas bay) all contributed to the amazing dance outside and inside of us which could create some more magic.

Our bodies were finally turning into symphonies where the inner magic strings were played in harmony.

Every time the faces looked wider and happier after the class. I felt so good. So what I basically did – I just held space and created some guidelines what to do. Everyone got so many different ways to look at themselves or their lives anew and create it as they would like.

One of the times one of the participants had her dog getting a surgery back home while we were doing the class. Out of nowhere we had this amazing dog coming and playing with us and also being very protective, when we disappeared into our snorkels, he came to check on us. So we sent some healing energy to her dog having an operation.

After the class was finished, which took usually an hour, I felt deep peace, relaxation and total presence. My whole body was soft. There was 0 stress. My life was flowing again. Tensions were gone from my body and my vocabulary.

mermaidsstretchingLila Osborne, the first amazing participant in the class is a remarkable woman and her name is an important message, coming to my life for a year now. (Check out her blog by clicking on her name).

First of February in 2012 me and Katrin Haiba (another amazing Estonian lady, who lives in NYC) – we had a nice sea goddess ritual in the very same ocean spot where I have classes now.

We were living on Katrin’s boat for some time – called LILA, which in sanskrit means ‘Within non-dualism, Lila is a way of describing all reality, including the cosmos, as the outcome of creative play by the divine absolute (Brahman).’

Lila, the boat, was previously owned by Pat Henry – a brave woman who circumnavigated the world alone with the very same boat and whom I got to know through her book ‘By the Grace of the Sea’ and her ‘Organic Stretching’TM classes and through Katrin’s connections. Almost 1,5 years later I came to participate in the Organic Stretching TM Teacher’s Training and start my new playful journey to the Mother Ocean and myself.

I have been wanting to create my own modality and have had loads of ideas, but this has been really beyond my imagination – the outcome of creative play by the divine absolute indeed. The modality which is a system without a system where everyone is on their way HOME to themselves if they have lost the way.

This I feel is just the beginning. I am so grateful to Katrin Haiba for inviting me here last year. I travelled from Hawaii and was not really willing to receive this location so well ( I missed Hawaii,BI a lot). Now I travelled from Estonia and it was a complete opposite. I was ready to receive everything. And I have and more to come! I am also super grateful for all the mermaids who came to the classes and everyone who helped me walk on land like an angel supporting and providing some magic every step of the way! Mahalo and Gracias!

The dolphins in the bay from  a sailing trip here with Marie and Leonard on Mi Casa boat. 

Lilas video testimonial after a month’s StretchDance in the Ocean on the 2nd of September  2013.

Peta, another participant shares her experience after one of the classes on video. 

Let me know if you have had some wonderful experiences in the water and if you would love to join the StretchDance classes in the Ocean or even better, invite me to your community  to invite you to the playshop of these discoveries! Go to my contact me page to initiate contact and leave your wonderful comments and stories down below! We mermaids love to play, whether it is fishes in the sea or words on paper!

How long are you going to postpone your dream life?

Desktop20Do you have moments, where you tell yourself, ah, I will do that tomorrow? Or later?

And then a day goes by, a week, a month, a year…. and you have longer and longer piles of ideas which will never be a reality! They will remain into a bubble state, unless you choose something different.

We are so good to find reasons why we are not able to do or choose something. I must say I feel like I am perfect on that sometimes! What about you?

kyllusmartI asked what is one of the reasons I hold myself back, because I am the only person who can keep me back. One of the answers I got, was that I am afraid of the failure. I have had so many small failures recently, that I did not want to create any more.

I wanted to really find out what it was, so I took a break here on the blog as well. I do not want to do anything I do not like to do, as I know this does not have the energy I would love to share.

But what is a failure? It is the conclusion our mind makes, according to what we define as a success. So if your results do not show what your mind was looking for, you conclude it is a failure. This is a judgment. Wherever we have a judgment, we can not receive – whether it is money or energy or ideas. So I have done loads of work with my judgments about myself this last week through different courses I facilitated myself and strated to create again! Got loads of generative ideas, choices and results!

universumMy challenge has been that I have had my own company for 6 years and have done loads of sales and marketing myself, spending many many hours daily by the computer. At some point I got so tired, I could not do anything online any more. I burned out. Totally. I did not delegate. Because wherever I did, it was another failure for me. I lost trust in people. In between I did not trust the Universe and did not let God be God. Then buttons like this would have done good for me!

One of the reasons why I joined Empower Network, was that I felt that they have many of the shortcuts and toolboxes which may go through things with ease and joy and glory. I would love to create more time for everything I feel I could contribute to people and the world.

So all you need is a choice! What is it you choose? To postpone things forever?

Or TAKE MASSIVE ACTION NOW!?

Henry Ford said: 

Whether you think you can or can not  – you are right!

Chris Record from Empower Network said you can not make excuses and money at the same time. Money is just an idea away. I agree.

Just two days ago I decided I choose something different. Stepping into my power I chose to create some events, one of these was a meeting with people in a spa, inspiring them to be in the water in a different way like mermaids for example. One of them had a fear of depth. I have developed a technique where people can go through the fear in a very short period of time. I helped this person to step through this within 15 minutes. The smile, the energy and joy she had, was so overwhelming, but so powerful, that it took my breath away! Time flew, 2 hours felt like 20 minutes. For me it is a sign that I am doing something which is part of my WHY here on Earth.

Also one very important thing for me is the place. The place where I live, work and play has to inspire me. If it does not, then I have to follow the energy and go to where it does.

One day I went to the cafe, and none of the plugs had electricity in it… So I left.

Today I followed the energy and went to the cafe where I felt inspired to work and got done loads of work within 2 hours, like in my office, being in a cafe surrounded by people, happy energy and support.

In conclusion, do whatever it takes to stop you to have your dream life now! Do whatever your guidance tells you! It never lies!

If you need some ideas how to do that and would love to choose a shortcut toolbox, let me know here!

Mahalo Mexico!

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2,5 months ago I escaped to Mexico. On the right hand side you see on the picture how I looked the first day when I got here. I looked pretty bad. Exhausted of fights, being in fear and not being able to create and live my dream life because of many limitations I had stupidly chosen and created in my life. I had got myself so stuck that there was no way out. I thought so.

Luckily with the help of friends I got to fly to Cancun. It took me 3 weeks to get my health back on track (coughing and lungs and high fever) and to pull myself together again took almost a month. My core turnover and breakthrough happened thanks to Greta Campagnolo from Canada, my sponsor in Empower Network, who totally believes in me and is a total kick ass woman, who kicked me so far that I managed to get donations around 1000 usd to get myself to Chicago and experience other 5000 people with me there.

picasa crystalnewmexicoOn this picture on your left, I am all balanced and happy, 2,5 months later, because of the right locations and right people and business choices I did. It is very important to listen to the inner guidance! That is one of my keys to the success!

In Mexico I worked a lot online. Every day I worked online and to heal my body, went to the local beach, in the very end I had some trips to Tulum Mayan ruins and also to Akumal turtle bay. It was an amazing experience to finalize my stay.

What do I love about Mexico?

The first time I was in Mexico was last year in Puerto Vallarta, where I stayed with my friends on their sailing boat, after that with a local family in Sayulita. It was a time full of adventures and challenges, but I really loved it. This time I got many new business ideas and also some of them are already giving fruits and if I keep it like that, will create my new sustainable future step by step.

aablogsolI love Mexican people. They are humble and creative and innovative, they do not complain, even if they do not have money or luxurious place to live. The whole village here is full of small enterprises and they all must function, as they are all opened all the time! I love the way they focus on their food and how many variations they have. I love how they take care of their family. I love the kindness they have. I love that they are dedicated whether it is a family or bills to pay or business to do. I love that there are good public transports to every possible place here.

Anni Sennov has said that Mexico is the golden and crystal energy platform for new time energy. I truly believe so. I felt so good here, much better than in London or Estonia. I love the laid back fishing village life and that everything is simple. For a climate refugee a perfect spot.

aablogsayulitaThe costs are 10 times or more cheaper than in London and maybe 2-3 times cheaper than in Estonia. To have the sun and an opportunity to go to swim in the Caribbean every single day is a jackpot itself! I lived with a Mexican family and it was nice and quiet place. The family was very helpful and always there if I needed something. How lucky am I? My dear friend Veronika Osawe invited me to this family as she stayed with them for some time herself. There is so much abundance here, especially in the nature.

I do not think they use it all very sustainably (like the solar power etc). There is a bit of lack consciousness and seems that when people get things going, they stey pretty much in the same known area. But I love the business mindness what they have here, everyone is doing something, whether it is playing music on the beach, selling snacks or just driving around with a little food counter in the village or renting rooms. I have learned so much to open my eyes in a different way to see possibilities!

aamexicolifeI did not manage to travel so much this time here for several reasons, but I got back to my own platform, to my own power and started to believe in myself and got my health back on track. Partly the help was Mexico itself, its sun and the ocean and partly it was the Empower Network Chicago event, where I got myself back again. Plus all the amazing people who have supported me here, or online. Will be back soon! If you are lost as well and do not know where to go and how or who you are or are just confused, let me know, maybe I can ask you some questions, and by sharing my story, you could get inspired and live the life of your dreams as well. That would make me so happy! More than anything! To see others to succeed!

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How far do we get if we try to be like others?

crystaltravelslighth2RREntrance from the end of April, 2013, Cancun, Mexico

I am now packing my stuff to leave Mexico and the last day was too busy even for a blog, but will do some extras to make it up!

Yesterday I got a thought of how much of my life I have wasted because I wanted to be like others or to fit in or to do like others were doing in order for me to be recognized and accepted. How far did it get me? Not very far, I got stuck every single time.

After the Chicago event I have been stepping into my own power more and more with every single breath I take. Sometimes it comes up quite abruptly like a little child, who tries to crawl and then to stand up and falls and hits herself. But I am much better already.

I thought back of so many relationships where  I have lost myself exactly because I wanted to be liked or appreciated or accepted! And when  I lost myself, I felt contracted, small and several times almost got killed. All that urge was rooted in the uncertainty of myself being me.

What if noone will be with me if I am truly me?

That was my everyday question.

In Chicago I chose a personal commitment to totally stand in my power and step into it beyond my wildest dreams. Every day it has brought me more challenges, but I am learning more and more how to balance my life on all fronts. It has not been easy, but I am better with every step and enjoying my empowerment more and more!

One of the core keys I have discovered within the last days is to be me and let others be who they are.

Simple as that. But what happens most of the time is that we would like that others would think or act the same way as we do or that we change ourselves so that they would like us more. I have discovered that when people do not like me it is their choice and I do not fight with it any more. I let them be and go, and focus on people who empower me because with them I can be fully me and be accepted exactly as I am. It empowers me and makes me grow and expand without any limits!

What about you? How much energy and attention do you put into wanting the others to like you? In the core bottom it is all connected to the fear of judgment. If you take that away, let your barriers down, what would happen next? I do not know, try it out and let me know!

 

Habits make you who you are!

aablogsaladdinnerLet me introduce you to my two new friends: Mr Dicipline and Mrs Priorities. My new friends who help me to succeed and constantly create new sustainable life on all levels!

I thought what would it take to change some of my bad habits and self sabotaging patterns?

Sleeping patterns?

The sleeping patterns have been very messed up recently. Because of the time difference with Europe is pretty bad (8 hours) it is almost impossible to get connected if you do not get up superearly or stay up late.

Today the idea came that what would happen if I would not sleep during the night, I would choose to step into my business powerwoman and just shoot the whole night and the day, until I drop. Which gave me an experience that I slept only 3 hours during that day (2 plus 1) and the rest of the day was super effective. I listened to my body fully and acted accordingly. And I changed the pattern in cooperation with my body! Wow!

Postpone everything to the last moment?

One of the patterns which has been really bad – has been to postpone everything I have to do to the last moment and that creates a lot of stress. So what would it take to change that? Maybe to do something totally different?

Change that with Empower Network!

What I find fascinating about Empower Network, is that it gives you an opportunity to self discipline yourself together with others. My problem the recent years have been that I have too much time, so I am not very good at planning or organizing myself. This way not much gets done and I destroy myself more and more.

8 commitments can help!

If you have the 8 commitments in Empower Network and keep them, plus have the group’s support, it gives you aslo a possibility to take the necessary steps to succeed. Because for sure if you change your habits, also people you had around you, will change and you will succeed. It is just so easy and so simple!

These have been the two things I have been missing in my life and some of my reasons to join the Empower Network. What are yours?

My personal experience with the AuraTransformation™

Photo by C.R.Laksmi – November 2017, Hawaii

I am happy to share with you an amazing modality which has completely changed my life.

I got my AuraTransformation™ in February 2007 and became an Aura Mediator™ in August the same year. I feel honored to have had the opportunity to introduce AuraTransformation™ to Estonia in September 2007. I was part of the Aura Instructor™ program from September 2008 to February 2010. I have done many AuraTransformations™ over these years all over the world and still enjoy the process very much. For me it has been the greatest and fastest highway to myself. It has not been a quick fix or a walk in the rose garden, but I am much more connected with who I am, where I am going, what I am doing with my life and how I am contributing to the planet and for the future generations! Continue reading

Birth of Crystal Poppins

During the last 2 years when I have been orbiting the world, not having a base, I have noticed some patterns.

Example 1

I stayed with a girlfriend. I did some of my energy and body processes on her, and stayed with her one week. Within a week, she had a new place to live, a new job and a new intimate friend!!???

Example 2

I stayed with a Mexican family for a month and a half. By the end of that time I did Bars for around 50 relatives (all for free to practice) and the hostess started to speak fluent English  by the end of my stay and started to translate my speaking to the locals. By the end of my stay, we cooperated with her and enrolled 9 people in the very first Access Bars Class I helped to organise!!!

Example 3

I stayed with a friend in London for two and a half months. I gave him ideas how to change his house (clear the clutter, put things in order, reorganize things). I noticed how his money was all over the place and how many money problems he had. I noted all these details and gave feedback to him. By the end of my time there, one of his client lists was full and had a waiting list, the second one got activated as well and more was coming in. He was more open to life, knew more about tantra and consciousness, changed his thinking and had new girlfriends. His son started a business venture which has already made both of them money. His son broke up with his previous girlfriend as I supported him as well, and met a new one who was much more suitable for him. My friend also won in lottery and got some new opportunities and clients every day. The knowledge I shared with him was worth around 10 000 pounds, the value he managed to manifest in money was around 8000 pounds. So this way, from Mary Poppins, Crystal Poppins was born! Thank you my friend!

Example 4

One of my last boyfriends who lived with me for a year and a half, I had to kick out of my apartment and out of my life in the end. Hooponopono. He was so angry and I was the enemy nr 1. Already in my studio, he and his mom started a club for handicrafts. In a year’s time they opened up a shop and built up a new business. He now travels the world, while the shop earns him money and value. Perhaps I was not so bad to him after all?:)

Example 5

I did some Access Bars classes here and there and more stories like this ended up in my mailbox, constantly! I stopped and asked myself. Wait a minute! This is Crystal Poppins!

You can find her services under the services link.

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Crystal Poppins having fun in the Hawaiian jungle

New websites are like new babies!

crystal-new-header-2.jpgLast week I launched my new Estonian site www.crystalralaksmi.com/eesti and it was a funny and crazy experience. One Estonian journalist contacted me after I got my notes about the future blog post up on my personal FB message board. She asked me to get the link so she could set it up to her online magazine. I knew what that would mean. Loads of traffic. What was missing was the proper systematic site. So I hit it off with 3-4 other people in various parts of the world (London, Paris, San Diego, Tallinn, Tartu, Pärnu) to get all the bits and pieces together. We made it! Wohoo! It is still just the beginning. Loads of extra work to put in.

I experienced the power of full cooperation for the first time in my life on that level. It was so intense – I worked on the content and everything else for a constant 50 hrs. One of the nights I just got so tired, that left for bed. In the morning I had an amazing surprise as some of the bits were in place as someone from the team had fixed it. First time in life I started to love the different time zones. 

I am now setting up the Hawaii adventure trips and this site has to get all in place as soon as possible. We have experienced some real fun and challenge with these pages. How the themes can be a limitation even though it looks beautiful.

childSo all in all it reminds me of a process of becoming a mother. You have an idea to become a mother and then start to take steps in order to make it happen. The same with the website. You have an idea, you start to put them together into a nice system and make it happen. Then it will be born and now it is your turn to take care of it in the best way you can. You can make it nice with colours and pictures (like putting clothes on a baby) and make it contribute to you. Sure, the first weeks and months it needs a lot of your attention, like a little baby does. Later on, it can crawl and walk on its own and if not, you can get someone to help you with that.

So here is my new baby – www.crystalralaksmi.com – the English website to serve me and you and make all the possible fun happening. All your ideas, suggestions are truly welcome! Thank you!

Baby picture from © UNICEF/Olivier Asselin

Thank you all for contributing for my website making process: 

Marie Nicole Lapointe (design, plug ins and more)  (San Diego) jackieofalltrades.biz

Kristi Laur (technical help and contact form and other tips) (Tallinn)

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Maiko Koort (technical help with the pages) (Tartu) www.mweb.ee

Tiina Liimandi (pictures, design, content feedback) (Pärnu) www.kohalolu.com

Mo Elnadi (social media) (London) www.crunchbase.com/person/mo-elnadi

Chapi Tchoupi (technical and internet) (Paris)

Katrin Haiba (English content clearing) (New York) www.facebook.com/DreamboatAdventures

Please share your stories about your making the web page experiences and what tricks have you learned? 

Funny stories with making websites?

Luck or Choice – that is the Question!

Humans are not meant to stay all the time the same. We are meant to grow. Jump out from our boxes  and comfort zones and start to take steps, even if the danger is going to be out there.

Before coming to Chicago, I checked the weather forecast. It was all warning for big storms, tornado and thunderstorms and flooding. I was sure that my flight will be cancelled, but then I stopped for a moment! Wait a minute, I did not even buy the travel insurance as I chose not to have that experience! I corrected my thoughts and aligned it again. I also did some talking to the molecules of the storm. You know we are all magicians and we can do that! So the results?

chicagoplainThe whole trip went well, no problem, everything perfect. Just a bit bumpy landing.Is it luck or a choice? It is up to you choose!

My hostess was amazing, a true aloha person, one step ahead at all times. I was treated with a grilled salmon and an amazing fresh salad. On top of it, the desert was 2 bits of organic chocolate, how did I really get so lucky!

So it is all flooding here in Chicago and we hope everyone gets to the event on time! This is my first deepdiving into Empower Network and I maybe should have taken my mask and snorkel with me? Or I just hold my breath! Superexcited!

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Ask and you will receive!

Wow, my first event with Empower Network is now behind me. I ran out of words!

I share first what my whole journey coming here to Chicago has been like and what it has done to me and hopefully it will inspire you to do and be whatever you choose without any limits!

I have had problems with asking for help or money for years. For me it was equal of saying –I do not manage my life and I am weak. So very many times, I did not ask. I stayed in my pity and felt a failure. I know many people do that. But what if you would not? What would happen then?

1 week ago I joined Empower Network. 4 days later I came to the Chicago event by getting money for the travels through donations from friends all over the world! I arrived despite to the fact of the flood and bad weather. I got here. I took contact with a local friend, who offered me accommondation. How can it get better than this?

The first day was amazing, there was so much to take in, 5000 people – all kinds of cultures, nationalities, backgrounds. The event got going so much that it finished 2,5 hours later. I missed my train back.

There I was sitting in one of the hotel lobbys and asking in one of the women’s group for help online. 5 minutes later, there came a call from 2 women: Greta Marie Campagnolo Lisa Burnham to share their room with me. As the other days it was also very difficult with the transport, I stayed for 2 more nights!!! How amazing is this? What a gift!!

For me this was something amazing. I have not felt such kindness and such care for a long time. How amazing is this? I sent out a call and 5 minutes later, I was offered a kind solution? I was empowered – they were empowered. The task for the night was to see a dream and before falling asleep I thanked them for gifting me a dream. In the lobby I could not have slept at all.

chicagoeventstageIt reminded me that this same morning I suddenly got 2 tickets in the chase of one, as the tickets were sold out. I saw someone having problems with the ticket in the registration and donated the other ticket to the registration crew in case it was needed for someone. So what goes around, comes around! Be careful! It is dangerous to be kind!

What I learned from this is – never underestimate one act of kindness, as you never know when you gonna need one as well. Asking for me is not any more an act of poverty or weakness, it is about the courage to tell out loud what is it you need or what has happened. I just wonder what would the world be like if everyone would do that!???

Not only did I get a bed to sleep in, I even got to borrow the T shirt from one of the women: with a Inner Badass message! Wicked eh?

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It is all about reframing it!

During the weekend Empower Network Event, Chris Record, who is the leader of the team Take Massive Action shared his ideas how re-framing helps to go through challenges and problems.

I agree. This morning I started to come back from Rosemont to Grayslake, and found out that I just had missed the train and the next one was about to come in 3 hours time. I walked to the first hotel lobby, sat down and wrote some blog posts, as they did not have free internet there. I had really fun, being surrounded by all the people leaving after the event and writing at the same time. I re-framed it!I got to my next train station in Praire Crossing and came out that all the trains, which pass within the next 3 hours do not stop in the next particulat stop where I had to go. So what else to do? I walked into the nearest Photoshop and asked directions.Ask and you shall receive! She would have given me a lift, but was a bit busy.

The owner was really nice and even printed me the map. There were also no taxis either. The walk took around 1 hour 45 minutes. The weather was good, sunny, and even though here in U.S.A there are no pavements for pedestrians, I made my way back. When people see someone walking by the road here, my  local friend said that the police may come and ask what is the problem, as everyone here are driving the cars.

But i enjoyed my walk after almost sitting 8 – 10 hours a day during the event. There was no sign to the train station either, so I luckily met 1 person on the street and could ask where to turn.

I got back to my location safe and felt gratitude for the adventure and that I re-framed the experience. The old me would have started to selfpity myself and feel bad, I felt good for having had the adventure and a walk, even though timewise it took me as much time to get from another part of Chicago to here almost the same time as from Mexico to Chicago. But if one of your assets is time, it is no problem. It is all about re-framing! Who knows maybe all my challenges can help someone in the future as I share that as my story!

Check the video of reframing here

Talking to the stranger

I sat down at the airport and there I saw a young man holding a hand on a woman and telling her things. The connection, energy was very sweet, powerful and close. When he left I asked her if that was her son, and she said no, it was her son’s friend who was so kind and drove her all the way to the airport (3 hrs drive one way). It was like 02.30 am. I asked more about her and she shared that she is just about to divorce and going to see her family in New Mexico and stay there to calm down for some weeks. Then she asked me where I am at and up to. I told her that I have been in a very challenging place and now taking my steps to get back into my own power and had an amazing weekend in Chicago with loads of people and world leader’s. She listened carefully.

Talking to each other, our eyes got wet, there was a connection, energy. Total strangers, who had just talked out of the blue like 10 minutes. We talked about our dreams, our challenges and our dreams and needs. How amazing is that?

I personally feel that the energy and connection I have to myself is totally different after this weekend. Something totally shifted in me and the depth and presence which has come from it is mindblowing. I feel that I am finally deepdiving on land. I will give this woman my card, and if she chooses to, maybe I am so lucky to see her at some later point in my life and share more who knows?

Never underestimate a talk to the stranger! As you never know what may come out of it. Maybe even a new friendship or new miracles! I do not even know the name of the woman, but she touched me with her being and presence. I am so grateful for her openness sharing something so vulnerable as the divorce can be. I feel gifted, by the touch of her being tonight. The presence. I believe in her. I told her so. I told her that she is an amazing person. Her eyes got wet again. Sometimes a kind word or two  is all what can make your day or night. She made mine. Thank you stranger!

How to follow the signs?

I had an interesting incident in Chicago Midway airport. I had to go to the toilet and tried to find it real quick, I looked at the signs on the walls and could not see one of them, so went downstairs, which took me much more time. The sign I needed was more up, so if  I had looked more up I could have saved some time.  Sometimes in life you need just this little to find your way.

Then I thought how amazing is this, as this is often happening with many people in life as well, that we look for signs and then miss one of it because of the stress or not being fully present? What would it take for us to always follow our signs directly, so we get where we would like to get with full support and ease right away?

Gratitude from the heart

How amazing is this? I spent an amazing evening with my two very amazing Estonian goddesses in Chicago, Sirje Press andHelbe  Lume and got to go to the  Estonian sauna with them and enjoyed the best amazing meal ever! And on top of it got driven all the way to the airport in the middle of the night, while Sirje stole almost 3 hours of her sleep time for me. Gifts like that are amazing and never to be forgotten! Thank you, your contribution is so valued!

Throughout the whole trip, I experienced miracle after miracle and it has been so amazing to be grateful for every single one of them! How blessed can we be and how much more can we create and attract, if we also count all our small blessings – I wonder! I am so grateful for all the women who donated money for my trip in Chicago, my amazing hostesses in Chicago: Sirje Press and Greta Campagnolo and Lisa Burnham and all the fun time we all had together! I am stepping myself into a new sisterhood and womanhood time and it is so amazing! Thank you, thank you! How lucky am I?

naisedchicagosI feel how every step with gratitude opens up more and more doors for me as well as more opportunities create itself with ease and abundance and I feel again that my world cares about me as I care about me and I have got back my vision and targets where to move to. I am so excited, so full of life and totally empowered! This event and the whole adventure which took almost a week of my life, gave me my life and my fullfillment back to me! Gratitude arises from the bottom of my heart to the world and every quantum particle being part of creating this! Thank you!

Are we all travelling places to meet ourselves?

I worked throughout almost the whole night online, and got to bed quite late. I decided before going to bed, that I am going to have an adventure and leaving early next morning.

Morning came and I felt the laziness in me wanted to take over, saying: letssleep some more! Maybe TOMORROW we go for a trip???!! Does that sound familiar? I knew that today was the day, so I got myself out of bed and got ready. I travelled to Tulum, where there is a national park, Mayan ruins and amazing beaches and even more so amazing people.

I presumed, that there would be a straight street going to the beach from the central part of Tulum. Just trusting that I got off there. I got the map and started to walk in the direction towards the ocean, not really thinking. Sometimes it is really good if you are not thinking.

What happened was that after 10 minutes or so I realized it was a bit wrong direction. I tried to ask locals, but noone spoke English. So they just pointed in one direction. But I knew I had to check. Then I saw a woman coming towards me.

tulumgirlfriendShe looked very tanned, so I did not quite know how to talk to her, but I started in English. She is Julie Ann from Michigan and was just wandering around. She said she knows there is a local bus station somewhere and that she is going to help me to find it. So she just turned around and came along with me (this is btw pretty usual here).

In this adventure she finally found post office, as well another shop, which she lost out of sight and the problem here is that the whole place is so new, that they do not even have street names! In London I was pissed off as the street signs were really not on the corners of the street, but here no street signs at all!

Check out this video of her here

How amazing! We did not manage to find the bus station first, so she asked some locals, it was so real and so fun! Julie Ann is such a bubbly and happy person and how lucky am I to have run into her? She has been teaching Mayans for many years ago and also just recently, but now is looking for new possibilities. Finally we found the bus station. Next bus was about to come, but justin  1,5 hours later. But as it is in Mexico, if you start to move to one place, you may go to some other places in between as it is no hurry to get to your final destination. We then went to get some cold drinks and talking was so flowing and easy and natural. Like old friends.

We talked some more and then got the information that the bus what I waited for does not go to where I needed. So we went back to the main street and looked for the small minibuses. So she spent all this time to get me safely to the bus. How amazing! Thank you! Sometimes it literally feels we have human angels walking on Earth!

vorkkiiged tulumI asked her if she is on Facebook or if she has a website. She has not, but we talked some more. On our last 10 minutes she started to talk about her talents, about her ideas and the whole lot what she has already done! I got a blinking light in me. To help her to make her own website and also introduce her into Empower Network, God she would rock in the women’s group like crazy! I told her all that, we exchanged cards and she was agree that something needs to be done. So we are going to meet tomorrow and she is going to show me one other amazing magical place and even make us some lunch. That is what I call a real cariloha! Wow!

My day around the ruins was amazing, the views, the colors, the ocean and the day was just superb. I felt myself totally in my element, all the negativity, doubt got cleared out. For me it works really easy, during the day I adventure, which very often is also the field work as in anthropology for me, as I get loads of ideas during my adventures, plus loads of connections and during the night I work online. Two Swedish people passed me and I stopped them, started to talk in Norwegian and it was a nice group! Next time, I have my card in handy!

 tulumchairsI also thought that it was amazing that I adventured alone, as when you are alone, you are wide opened. I basically followed my heart and got to see Tulum from a totally different point of view and got possibly a new friend as well.

The Mayan ruins, will need some extra time in the blog, will write more about it in some of the coming days. I also love the video shooting, it is just so much fun. My creativity just kicks my ass!

So to finalize!

  1. What if every morning there would be no Tomorrow to postpone things to and you would CHOOSE IT NOW instead?
  2. What if you would do a little discovery of the unknown every single day?
  3. What if you would talk to strangers every day? (I am excited about this to try out more in Estonia, wohoo! (they usually freak out))
  4. Would talking to strangers contribute to you and your business(es)?
  5. What would happen if you would follow your inner guidance istead of going from A til B?
  6. What if each one of us is a contribution to the other in ways we can not even imagine?
  7. What if life can be an adventure and fun all the time?

mexicanbusI hope you have fun, wherever in the world you are, and let me know if you feel inspired by my blogs and videos and if you have some questions how to have an adventurous life location free as well!

Cariloha from Mexico, Tulum, end of April 2013.

If the door is closed does that mean I am not supposed to go in?

That was something I used to believe. I had seen these different invitations to Empower Network in different places. It was like a blinking lighthouse and at one point it started to blink very intensively. I just started another online business project and worked with it for hours every day, sometimes even 20 hours behind the computer. The results were very slow to come. I lost my motivation step by step.

One evening I started to talk to Greta Campagnolo from Empower Network and ask more questions about it, like how it works and what it means. She explained. First time after a long time there was the person in the other side of the world, who actually talked to me and on the personal level. Listening, caring, supporting and motivating me. So I said, I am in. What do I have to do next? I went to the payment page and whatever card I tried, it did not let me in.

The next day I called my banks, they checked and said it is all good. So I called to the EN technical support. They said, that if I am not in the country, where my card is issued, it may not allow me to make the deal as a security set up for the card.

So what else is possible? I contacted one of my girlfriends back home, we went in to my account through Estonia and still the card did not work.

historyvaadeI was about to give up. Then I talked and asked Greta what else is possible and we found a solution! So after 2,5 days we finally got me in. She invited me to the first Super Women Team hangout in youtube and that was so cool, to see women from all over the world talking, motivating and supporting each other. So I saw it in action, it is not only about money and who is best in getting the biggest sales, but the human connection is the core key!!!

Even though they had just had the meetings for 2 months it felt for me like a community of women who have been good friends for years. There was no competition, no jealousy, no judgments, no feeling that someone is less than the other or superior to each other. I could not believe it. It was for me like Paradise on Earth!

I have been intensively chatting to Greta for some days now. I do not know all the details yet, but it feels for me that Empower Network is for me like coming home. I have spent years to support others, build platforms for them and almost always been left empty handed. First time I felt someone was contributing to me and believing in me. Wow! Is it really possible that it is not all gone? The world needs me? I can share my story? Wow? Someone is actually listening to me?

I sat down and thought what was that all about?

I understood that in the journey of the macho masculine woman I had turned to, I was doing my first steps to be fully vulnerable to ask help to get in, to allow the help to get to me to get in. For me it was a no option before. For me asking help was always a sign that person did not know how to manage their lives or too weak to take action. In my case none of these were my reasons this time, but it was still very difficult for me to ask for help. But I did. Not only one time, twice and even the third time.

I am now fully stepping out from the NO CHOICE Universe and I am STOPPING IT and stepping into my power and taking my own life, my own financial reality’s remote control into my own hands! If you would like to contribute to that in my life and in yours, read more and check the video and ask me more how to join!

I wish myself good luck, as I feel I am in the beginning of something very big and that I can break all the limitations I have ever had and create a more sustainable life for myself and my son and the planet Earth. Happy people can change the world with ease and joy and empowerment! Where you have empowerment, people are who they are so that abundance and glory follows by magic!

This blog entrance is from Mexico, Cancun, Mid April 2013

Do not ask for a miracle, become one yourself!

I decided yesterday that I am traveling to Chicago for the Empower Network event this weekend, as I am stepping UP and back into my power! Wohoo! I still do not have the whole amount of money, but I have made my choice and taken some action steps (like finding a place to stay and some part of the tickets),  so the rest can come and create the miracle from my inner core!

I am doing two things here. Firstly I jump and take the leap, trusting my heart’s call and secondly I risk, by kissing the unknown, not knowing exactly how to get all the pieces together yet. I stay in the question, and I am ready to recieve and allow the Universe in all its aspects to contribute to me, because I know I am totally finished with trying to make it all by my own. I am ready for the SHIFT TO HAPPEN! The contribution to flow in from people, possibilities, work, ideas etc.historycrystal

I understood that the miracle is not something outside of me, it can just be me by having a new choice!

I understood today also that in order to create a new future, I should go through and adjust my 4 V’s.

I call them 4 V’s as in my home language these words start with a letter ‘V’.

  1. Viewpoints (Vaatenurgad)
  2. Values (Väärtused)
  3. Needs (Vajadused)
  4. Shadows (Varjud)

I understood that these are the main building blocks which have been holding me back from my own power.

1.Viewpoints – a victim mentality, not good enough, I do not have this or that and because of that I have no CHOICE UNIVERSE etc. As we know what you think, you create! So what if not only me, but everyone would throw these out of the window, what would happen?

2. Values – I figured during these last weeks, that my core values are EMPOWERMENT AND INTEGRITY AND AUTHENTICY. So what would happen if I totally embrace these qualities? Would I attract similar people into my reality? Would they support me on my path?

3. Needs – the ability to talk about my needs and ask for what I need, especially if it is for help, like asking for money has been very challenging for me. What if I also change that? I just say out loud what I need? Being courageous for taking care of my needs and find the ways to do it!

4. Shadows. As this society has brought us up with the knowing that shadows (all the negative and hidden stuff) is bad, we act accordingly. I feel it is the time where the shadows come out and ask for more attention and integration. They are asking for the embracing touch and presence. In the world of polarity I am now learning how to dance with my shadows and not feel bad about it. I am still learning how to do it so that people would feel invited to come to the exploration with me, not to run away.

With the simplicity and complexity I truly am, the dance of polarities and elements, I am now fully stepping into my power to become the MAGIC I TRULY AM, because where there is a will, there is the way.  Would you like to become a miracle yourself, pls ask me how!

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Entry from mid April 2013, Mexico, Cancun

[author] [author_image timthumb=’on’][/author_image] [author_info]Crystal Ra Laksmi (36), originally from the birthland of Skype – Estonia – but a global citizen circling around the globe on her orbit to bring forth transformation and share her experience how everything is possible if you find your voice and start to use it and stand in your own power while creating your dream life![/author_info] [/author]